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So lonely

I confess that I have lied in some of my posts to get a little bit of attention. I really miss the affirmations...

Seinfeld Time

I was a huge Seinfeld fan. But I haven't watched it for a good 15 years or so since my undergrad days in the mid 2000s. What happened to all those DVD season box sets? Anyway, wow everything feels so dated now. Not just the terrible fashion, huge jackets, giant ties, bizarre colors, but there are rotary phones, phone books, answering machines, rolodexes, giant mobile phones, and the pacing is so slow and finally, almost all of Jerry's standup is gender orientated. I never noticed! I feel ancient!!!!

Outburst and regret

Last night I lost it on a guy I thought was driving too fast in a residential neighborhood. He was but I was way out of line and acted like a psychotic person. To his credit he handled my ridiculous outburst very well. He tried to calm me down and then when noticing I was unreasonable wished me a good night and walked away. I stormed off and as soon as I turned a corner realized how stupid I acted and had immediate shame and regret. Anyone who might have witnessed this would think I was a lunatic. I went back about 10 minutes later to apologize but he was gone. In my daily life I think most people would describe me as unfailingly polite and kind. But everyone once in awhile an anger rises out of me that I can't seem to control. This is something I've decided to seek help with. I never want to be the person I was last night ever again.

Firsts

My mom brought cashews to the Thanksgiving dinner. (We have told her for 10 years now that he’s extremely allergic to nuts.) She mocked him for his allergy. She told me I’m making up the allergy, that it’s my “idea”. She told me my son is weird. I never thought I’d say this but my mom is a bitch.

Earplugs

They are so handy. I never used to consider bringing them with me. But I find I'm always wanting them when I don't have them, especially when I'm on transit. Like if someone had their fucking music or other audio on super loud, I could just slip them on. I mean people just don't give a shit about other people, so it's less stress to alter my behavior versus someone else's and people wonder why I don't talk to other people.

Feels good

Nothing feels better than deleting dating apps. Not due to having met someone, more so out of futility and hopelessness, but it still feels like I am shedding something in a good way.

Where are my lemons?

My tree is no longer producing lemon fruit and I am frustrated and upset. I think I will have to cut this tree down to find closure.

What about Grouse Mountain

So you have to have a vaccination to go up grouse mountain? Even in the winter? With a google and mask on? I confess, we’ve REALLY become a zombie society

Anxiety

I live with anxiety that is due to childhood emotional abuse. Have suffered this since I was a child, and it has limited my ability to experience a full life. I feel trapped in a mental prison that is anxiety.

I SAW YOU

Enchanting blonde, Union Market

Waiting outside the Market, you and your friend were staring at me. You were wondering about my...

SAVAGE LOVE

Savage Love: Genital warts, financial domination, and a very generous wife

Dan's first letter writer wants to know if she should talk to her boyfriend about a sexually transmitted infection with symptoms.