Interesting that a population finally getting the hang of life with a virus is now cycling without helmets? Maybe they don’t have much brain to lose but you would think people would be a bit more careful.
I’m feeling it. Subconscious slip ups. It’s easiest to stay home than constantly trying to patrol my own personal boundaries while upholding those of others.
A post saying gyms are an essential service.
I hate to be the bearer of bad news but when all the subsidies run out in November people are going to start cutting non essential things like gym memberships and subscription fees.
After 3 months inside I'm sure people have figured out how to workout at home and realize they never needed to go to the gym in the first place.
So I respectfully disagree gyms are not an essential service.
I've disappeared. The past few years I have had basically no online presence. Barely any real world presence. Did anyone come looking for me? Anyone curious? Concerned?
I always feel kind of sad when people move out of my building, and I am still here. My building is fine, it's just I feel left behind when others are moving on to houses or presumably some sort of improved living situation. I mean, can you imagine living in a house! I'd be in paradise! I am working towards improving my lot but it is slow going and covid has crushed my income. Sometimes I feel like I will die in this random grey apartment building, and never know what it is like to truly have a home.
Everyone is in masks in my little part of reality. I saw a PICTURE of a woman with red lipstick and my body immediately told me I must be super stimuli deprived right now.
I don't do things I enjoy because I am paranoid about making noise and bothering the neighbours. This makes no sense because I am already super quiet and my neighbours make about 10 times more noise than me. They don't really seemed concerned about bothering me. But I am not capable of acting the same way, I would be plagued with guilt. So instead I tiptoe around like a church mouse and don't have any fun. I wish I could do something I like, such as putting on music or watching a movie loud enough for me to hear it. I think I am too considerate. My own mother told me that! Being the least assertive person in the building is no fun.
I got sooooo fat over the last few months. What the fuck am I doing? I need to change my life around.
A couple of months ago I found what feels like a lump or a mass in my abdomen. I haven’t felt well in a long time. I told a couple of people about it at the time, but then I regretted telling them. I wound up telling them both that I’d had it checked out and it was nothing, but actually I haven’t gone to the doctor about it at all. I’ve been in a severe depression for ages now and I just can’t seem to shake it like I used to do. I’m kind of hoping that if I wait long enough to see the doctor that it’ll be too late to fix it. I’m so tired of fighting for my health and I feel like I’ve got nothing to look forward to anymore. I can’t imagine going through nasty cancer treatments on top of the other medical issues I’m dealing with, so I just want to wait until it can’t be fixed.
It takes a lot time and energy pretending to be politically correct not to offend so I can be accepted. Keeping up an image and pretending to be someone that I am not is also exhausting. The moment I let my guard down I get disappointed. Anytime I can be ghosted for what ever reason. Making friendships with anyone no longer important to me.