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Getting Older

I am already settled down but I feel like I want more adventure. I walked past a beautiful woman yesterday who gave me a look that made me feel alive. I'm in my prime and I'm doing alright for myself... I guess I just don't want to look back and feel I missed out.

I’m enjoying

I lose 10-15 lbs and all of a sudden women notice me. Smiles, glances, putting hair down, small talk. It feels nice :)

Is it mental health or real issues that anyone would feel?

I'm stuck in a shitty job in Vancouver. I am severely underpaid for what I do. I look at the real estate situation and feel totally hopeless. My family lives here, but I know that I have to move away to afford any decent life without being up to my neck in a mortgage. I just feel so angry though! The lack of control at my job and in my renting situation makes me feel so angry, anxious, and so depressed. Is this normal? How do people deal with it? I want to know because it feels so bad. I don't know if I can stay in this headspace.... and maybe that's how humans were designed to think? Maybe it's a signal to get out. How do people cope in the meantime though? How do you enjoy life?

I Don't LIke Who I Am Becoming!

After years of loneliness, failed relationships, and other life dramas I am becoming angry and bitter. The crazy lady muttering obscenities behind her mask. The things I use to be able to laugh at or just shake off now I get so annoyed or angry. I have built a wall so high around myself, no one will ever get in. This is not a good way to live.

Getting back to normal

So things are starting to open back up, we can have people over again, much more freedom to socialize and go out and about. Although, I've learned over the last year, that I didn't like the people I was spending most of my time with, and during covid they basically ghosted me, and I'm okay with that. My pre-covid friends were people that shout talked at me and even if I could get a word in edgewise they'd not remember what I said later, so do I really care if I can see them again. No, no I don't. I'm way to good for them and their negativity anyways.

You made your bed

My ex will not leave me alone. Texting me calling me leaving terrible messages. Saying mean horrible untrue things. Trying to tell me what to do still, guilt tripping me about things I now have no control over because of his short sidedness and his possible bipolar issues. Not a nice person. I have blocked his number so he calls me from work or emails me from my son's email. We tried staying friends for the children but that didn't work for details already explained above. He's very controlling and hurtful and I've been done with him for quite sometime. Not sure what to do next ? Why won't he leave me alone ?

Being Ugly

I was wearing a mask today and lots of women looked at me to check me out. I felt happy. I took my mask off for the rest of the walk home and I don't think one woman looked at me. Attractive people have no idea how easy life is for them...

I Wish

The man I’m in unreciprocated love with was tipsy the other night and going on about how selfless he is in life and how he’s hooked up friends that have gotten married and had kids. He was saying it’s time to focus on himself and hook himself up. I was just sitting there thinking “well, you can, I’m right here.” He didn’t seem to clue in and now I can’t stop thinking about how much that hurt me. I’d like to have kissed him in that moment but I missed the opportunity. I hesitated. We’ve hooked up a bunch and he’s with me a lot but it’s never more than what feels like a fling. I want to be vulnerable with him but my gut tells me I’ll get my heart broken. Love hurts. :( <\3

Breakfast

After decades of not eating it, I thought I would try it. It’s changed my life. I know that sounds dramatic but I’ve actually lost weight without changing anything and I feel calm and satisfied before noon. Who knew?

I SAW YOU

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I was trying on a pair of shoes. We had lot's of fun as we shared common age stories.LOL . I...

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