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Lost - Have You seen my Fulfillment?

Some years ago, I found everything I needed in Vancouver which took me by surprise because until I realized it existed I didn't know I needed it, only I couldn't have this magical life-fulfilling thing so it was a rather unhappy realization, and so I left Vancouver to find it somewhere else (where it wasn't, and I knew it wasn't) in the hope that by looking everywhere I would discover many things, meet many people and visit many places and forget about what I needed, but it never worked, so I came back to Van to find it but now I really don't know where it went.

That photo of the dad

And his 2 yr. old daughter laying dead on the shore of the Rio Grande river after trying to migrate to the US is one of the most horrific images I’ve ever seen. I know atrocities are constantly happening at any given moment throughout the world but that drowned little girl with her arm around her dad brought me to tears. Just the saddest, saddest thing. I kinda hate being a human being some days.

"When I Was Your Age"

I got a little sick of being told shit like "I was at Woodstock when you were in diapers" when I was young by older people. Now I'm the age that they were, their lives aren't that enviable but you don't see me being condescending to people young or old about their experience.

What I need

is very little, really. I have always made do on a fairly low income, and I like the feeling of being resourceful over spending money. A brisk walk outside is nice, maybe the occasional hike. Library books. Music. Public art. Good laughs and conversation. Someone who loves me unwaveringly, who I love ferociously in return. All of those things are free.

Laughing So Hard

I can't stop. When I read such a graphic headline in the Georgia Straight like "Woman surreptitiously takes photo of SkyTrain exposer's genitals", I just lose it.

I Have No Plan B

I've worked towards this one goal for many years. My heart has been so dead set on it, that I haven't told a single soul of my plan - because sometimes I feel that there are more gestapo in Canada than there are average citizens. Please god, don't let anyone place a roadblock in my way. I've come this far, and I'm on a tight schedule. Please let it go smoothly. I have no Plan B. Please spare me from having to develop a solution if Plan A fails, because we both know what that solution would entail. Please let this one dream of mine come true.

Ridiculous crush

I have a huge crush on a guy I work with- I have not had a crush like this since I was like’s crazy, totally overwhelming and kind of fun to feel this way...but it’s also pointless because he has a girlfriend. I thus have all this insane sexual energy that I feel like is flinging out of me anytime I’m near him and it’s just being wasted...but I can’t get him out of my head. It’s been 6 months! I’ve dated others and then broken up with them because it didn’t seem right to have such an intense attraction to someone else. I realize this is ridiculous. I’m not young either, nor inexperienced in dating/love/sex. I just can’t seem to move past it. Advice?

I'll confess I can not give her what she needs.

I've spent far too much time trying to figure out how to convince her I love her so much. Well yes I do, but that is not enough. I know this now and it sucks really bad. I do not see myself possibly loving like that again, I mean I hope I'm wrong but doubt it. I wish her all the best in this world and I have to try and find strength to be better than just loving someone, I believed that song "Love is all you need"


Park and Fly Shuttle Bus - Secret Admirer

You were wearing a jacket that said BTA Academy on it and have curly hair. We were both in the...

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