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Fuel

Lately food is just something that takes time away from other things I like to do.

Crossing the bridge

I love going for long walks on the Burrard St Bridge and seeing all those vintage apartment buildings overlooking the ocean, especially during summer. Has a nice rustic feel to it.

Explosions in the night

I really like having wet dreams! I find them fascinating and magical. I mean, you are having a dream, and maybe a sexy dream, and then...uh oh, I feel like I'm gonna cum. And then you do cum in the dream, and you wake up, and you are orgasming in real life. With no hands! They are pretty rare but when they do happen the memory stays with me for a while.

I deserve my misery

I met a cute girl in Ontario in '88 in my 20s (everyone's cute in their 20s). We moved to Van; she was one of the rare ones & never liked it here unlike me. When she was studying in TO, she asked me to move there, I said forget about it and ended a 20 year union. Then I met an amazing girl who was still married but her husband was more like a father to her. She separated from him and we had a lot of fun together for 8 years; she was perfect for me. But she never could divorce him & marry me; so I ended that one too. Now I'm lonely in my 50s for 2 years now with bleak prospects of ever meeting another partner suited to me. Life is a series of choices and I know I deserve my predicament. I'm still youthful & healthy but that doesn't seem to matter. My sense of purpose is slowly withering away...

Wherever you go

Thirteen years ago I fought my way back from a bad depression with bi-weekly therapy and grueling honesty. I was thereafter, all things considered, happy in a stable relationship with a solid career plan for a decade. The relationship ended badly a year ago. Two years of increasing anxiety that came with the death of that relationship have depressed me to the point that I’ve lost my drive, my optimism and my hope. In the last 12 months I have tried to laugh it off, drink it into oblivion, eat it numb, distract it with Netflix and “weekend escape” it away. But wherever you go, there you are. I know that this isn’t a failure, but it’s hard to be back in the darkness again.

All that

I have feelings for one of my friends but I can tell they're not into me that way. I tried to get over that and I'm realizing that although we are similar in a lot of our hang ups, it's not the only way I'd like for us to connect. However, connecting on shared pain has brought about a lot of positive changes for me. I want to connect to them on a little bit of a calmer and happier level. I want to just hang out and do something fun but they usually say no if I ask them to hang out. They only seem to want to hang out on their terms, or in a group, hence my feeling that they want to avoid anything sexy. My confession is that I feel confused on how to communicate. I want to be honest but I'm also just thinking of drifting away for some space. I don't think it would be wise to confess that I'd like to go on a date with them. I think at the heart of it I want to date them and I don't know if I can get beyond the feelings of that for some reason. I have tried my best to get past that but it only subsides when I spend time away from them.

Karma?

I spent my inheritance following a recently single woman around Southeast Asia to Yoga retreats. We got really involved with one for years that seemed really spiritual but it turns out the Guru was sleeping with the students and went into exile. Now, I'm really good at yoga but don't have much to show for myself but disillusionment.

Blessed

Getting my iud was one of the best decisions I have ever made for myself. Seriously, I no longer carry the burden of the risk of pregnancy, and I'm no longer held down by the shackles of a period. I feel as free as can be. This is what I imagine men must feel like!

Happy Birrhday Mom

You are a Angel and I still So Miss You, from the bottom of my heart. Aways my rock and the sweetest woman in the Universe. I know you are somewhere better now. I Love You.

Back at even ground

After two sh*tty years, beat an addiction(past the 6 month mark this month) and am financially positive. Not by much, but paid off a credit card debt, cut up the credit card, got a temp job and put a couple hundred in savings. Never has even ground felt so nice. I could easily be defeated and look at everything I don't have, but not today. today i'm just happy being even steven. I can pay for my own cup of coffee. woohoo!

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