Just found out I lived next to an apartment tower that had a drug lab with a grenade for an insurance policy; and, I thought I lived in a nice neighbourhood, tsk.
I confess: I’m a sucker for people I love. I’m generous with whatever I have, and I don’t have much. But I’m doing a slow burn right now as I’m doing without luxuries like vacations, new clothes, stuff for my place, while watching the people who owe me a bunch of money carry on like they’ve not a care in the world. I loaned these people money in good faith, with their promises to pay me back quickly. They’ve both got way more income coming in than I do, plus they’ve been eligible for rent reductions and other covid related financial arrangements. So apparently they now feel free to spend the money they’re not spending on rent and car payments, etc, on extras for themselves, completely ignoring the fact that they’re supposed to be paying me back! So yeah, I feel like an idiot for being stupid enough to trust that they would respect me enough to pay me back before they spend on luxuries that they don’t need. Lesson has finally been thoroughly absorbed now though. The bank of “me” is officially closed. I don’t care how dire your situation is from now on; you’ve shown your true colours and I won’t be fooled again.
People don't have money in Vancouver, but now they're all paying for food delivery? Even people on EI eat out more than I do. I'm seriously a grinch, eh? I don't see why anyone bothers try anymore. This is all gonna blow up in our face and hard-working people will have to clean-up the next recession mess.... but on the scale it might occur at, I am doubtful we can really do the heavy lifting next time.
But I must bike to the beach and make it to this date today no matter what.
I work for the government and my life is completely meaningless. A website form could replace me.
I realized the irony as I was carrying my purchases from the store. A bathroom scale and two bags of potato chips.
I am using up so much water for my plants It's really not good. I don't know if I will do that again next year, but I might because it looks so beautiful.
Of the talent of my fellow humans that make music on improvised instruments - drumbeats on buckets, beatboxing, techno on pvc pipes, vegetable orchestra...the list goes on. After coronavirus is defeated, I'd love to hear them all celebrate in unison.
I look after a family member with an illness, who lives with me. We're both adults. Since the pandemic, I've been unable to do the activities that kept me cheerful and spending a few hours with others. When I go out on my own, I admit I sometimes don't feel like coming back home. That is my confessions.
I haven't seen my "friends" in over a year.
I don't think we're really friends..
So now I'm thinking of ways of making new healthy friendships or acquaintances. I have a lot to offer and this brunch would be better with other people involved. This introvert needs a game plan. I'm in awe of all the people at the beach in groups having a blast.