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Unconcious Genetic Memory?

I know things, and I know how to do things that I shouldn't because I never had any kind of training for these things. But I know some of my ancestors did.

Some people are seriously confused

We’ve been told to stay in, but that it’s okay to go for a walk or cycle as long as we maintain distance from others. So I know a couple of people who are freaking out because they see people out and about. One person is filming outside his place every day, showing people riding bikes or or out walking. He’s angry because he wants to go out to walk his dog, but “these selfish people” (as he calls them) are outside! Apparently he can’t grasp the irony, as he’s standing outside just like they are, often walking their dogs, just like he wants to. People need to get a grip.

It’s going to be a long haul

I’m usually a pretty positive person. But the facts and science behind COVID-19 don’t paint a good picture. Honestly I don’t see our consumer society returning to its globe-trotting, festival-attending, beer swilling in clubs and restaurants for a year or more. This is a global infection that needs to die down. I can’t wrap my head around how it will all play out, especially south of the border from us, in America and Mexico. I have confidence in Canada and the guidance from the health ministers. But controlling COVID-19 in the USA and Mexico.... again the facts about those two countries makes me very pessimistic. If Canada gets it under control, how can we exist alongside the USA where it will be a catastrophe with 50 states all doing different things? I have moments of shock. I grieve for so many things too many to count. I know we will get to the other side of the tunnel but I’m fucking scared of what will happen before we get there.

Tenuous

I keep dwelling on how one minute I was just trying to survive in this city pre-pandemic, which involved staying afloat and trying to keep it together. And the next minute, I am now realizing how trivial the bulk of my concerns were and how easily that house of cards could come tumbling down.

Not severely affected by the pandemic

The big difference is I don't go out to shop as much (which is nice), stay 2 meters away from people in line-ups (which is REALLY nice!), and the rest of my life stays about the same. I work, am too tired to socialize after work, but I found a tiny bit of extra time to exercise almost every day. Yoga and running... and I always run by myself, so that's the same. Yoga replaced bouldering (which I would do mainly by myself anyways). Now I'm on the computer by myself. The only thing I will miss is the family dinners, although I am an introvert and I find those really emotionally exhausting, as much as I want to be there. All those social butterflies are just dying, eh? Welcome to reality. Work and no play... Although, if you don't want anymore either, you may just go crazy.

Dreamland during the pandemic

Dunno how or why? My dreams have been more vivid & intense over the last week/s. Dreams of Living simple village life in some time /place/people i can't place or identify. Maybe it's better that i can't, it allows the message & lessons to be more pure & universal. I plan to share what comes thru as recall allows.

I wish

My life wasn't so worthless

Red

I painted my nails a whorish red. It's as close as I've gotten to being whorish. When the coronavirus is over, that is going to change

With age comes wisdom

I remember my grandfather always saying to me that "you should always have 3 months expenses in cash put aside for emergencies"..now I know exactly what he meant...it all goes well until something like this virus pops up ....he raised his kids during the depression and most likely was taught that lesson back then...he has been gone a long time now...I wish he was still around to share more of his wisdom with me...

I was out walking today

In New West and a woman on a treadmill caught my eye. Kinda shocked, I figured I must be looking into a private office. It was an open gym with multiple people working out!!! So you inconsiderate a-holes at the gym on 6th Street in New West, Go fuck yourselves!!

I SAW YOU

Hey, my eyes are down

I’ve seen you, and I feel you’ve seen me.. ...

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