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Indoor Outdoor Meows

Last week I stayed in an Airbnb with a porch, and a street car was sleeping on the chair out there. I opened the door and got to have a little furry friend tiptoeing around. Best feeling ever!

Old enough

I’m old enough to see patterns in how rich people have manipulated society for their own benefits. Sure taking care of the environment is important, but typically there is some making money from working the population into a lather.

Burnt Out

I am completely burnt out and have this total dissociation from people now cause they hurt me to deal with. Just riding out my life.

Office people

I started a new job. It has been gruelling to say the least: endless tasks, interruptions, competing demands, etc. A coworker, who I never talk to beyond “Good morning”, cornered me at lunch and said “I think you’re looking for a new job. I think you’re gonna quit.” It came out of left field and I responded, “Why are you so interested in my life?” I am wondering if they will try to get me fired or something. I honestly don’t understand office workers, if they are so completely bored as to conjur up imaginary things that their colleagues might do.

With the Fish

I want to give my wrists gills And exhale

Romantic and Creepy

I'm infatuated, yes. She's off to some isolated artistic hermitage soon for a month...and there's an extra spot available. I could apply. I'm not going to. At first in my head it was all romantic and perfect and animated butterflies and songbirds, we'll be together at the edge of the world, we'll reconnect, I'll get it right this time, but I'm worried she reacts more like Shelley Duvall in The Shining.

Uh oh.

I have always been kind of a drifter through life, no clear goals or ambitions, a recent wake up call happened when I learned the job I had for 15 years may be ending soon and I have been sending out resumes. I am in my 50s so the prospect of looking for new work is bad enough but I have come to the realization that I have no "hard" skills. I don't speak another language, don't know how to touch type, can't computer code, have the barest understanding of MS Office and Excel, only vaguely know a few computer programs all of them art related. Back when I was in my 30s friends, who's career paths weren't working out went back to school and learned different skill sets. Since it took until my 40s to pay off my student loans, the idea of going into debt again filled me with dread. On top of that, I'm terrible at networking and I don't play well with others. So yeah, I'm screwed. I'm a few credits away from a BFA, I'm thinking dipping into my savings and going back to school so I can say I accomplished something. however minor. Heed these words people in your 30s and 40s, it's not too late to change paths if things aren't working out for you, don't paint yourself into a corner like I did.

SFU Football helps

I waited 3 years to return to post secondary studies, pre pandemic I had worked 6 years and amassed multiple awards, bursaries and scholarship funds to pay for my desired niche trade. it was a dream that was stopped cold for COVID. When I finally got back to it in September it was closure, but within a few weeks it was also clear what had returned was severely broken and I withdrew. I had so much self doubt. I was ashamed to tell people because I had been working for this dream for roughly 10 years and to walk away seemed to be on me. The SFU football team being cancelled highlights just how much things have broken. Nobody gives a shit about my plight, but my plight is really no different than theirs. There are millions that will have great adventures this academic year, but there are just as many who will hit dead end walls and broken dreams. The SFU football team is fighting a no win situation, but their loss helps many recognize that things are broken.

Dating in 2023

Last year felt like everyone I dated was just pandemic rebounding/playing the field or seemed to be wiggy or quick to want to cohabitate out of wherever they were currently co-abitating. This year, it's better. Maybe it's because we can go to a movie theatre and have choice of many movies. sitting wherever we want. Not having a mask in the back pocket at all times, just in case it's needed. Wandering and finding restaurants, not pre phoning in and showing up to a first with a criteria and list. lol.


a long time ago

We met at Trinity B.C. you asked me a question about forgiveness and I gave you an answer which...

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