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No time for summer fun

when you have Major Depressive Disorder and Body Dysmorphic Disorder. All you can do is hope no one comments on the baggy hoodies you wear in the searing heat and count down until cooler, calmer autumn days.

My mother is an alcoholic.

If I don't go to the store to buy her wine, I'm a bad daughter. Yes I know things are tough, money is tight and life isn't unfolding as she had hoped, but booze isn't the answer.

You know…

I have my weak moments, and my words are referring to something different than you imagine..but you answers keep me laughing… Thank You

Vancouver changed.

Years ago, after living in Van during the 90's, I moved back in the mid 00's. I lived above a strip club in mount pleasant. Most weekends there were shootings or beatings or violence of some kind in the area where yellow tape was around my building in the morning. I could hear the mice in the walls. Kingsgate was barren beside buy-low, an insurance place and a weird photo passport place by the washrooms. this was before the library or trendiness of current Kingsgate. My rent was like $500. It was a sh*tty abandoned neighbourhood where the community centre gym was in a stuffy basement without windows. There was a dollar pizza place still standing and outside the foundation and the first Slickity Jims there weren't many trendy restaurants yet. I left Vancouver and now pay $800 for a place with a balcony over looking Nanaimo. It has the same feel that mount pleasant did years ago. Yellow crime scene tape, dirty broken sidewalks and abandoned buildings. For the better part of my adult life I loved Vancouver. the 90's and 00s were amazing. But it changed. Leaving Van I realized that other places are cheap and eclectic and what Vancouver used to be.

Words matter.

I guess this could be said for many things post pandemic, but as a hardcore cinephile I really wonder who reviews and movie news is for anymore. As someone who has gone to the theatre since the moment they opened in 2021 I have seen darn near most films, and many streams. Reading online about the industry seems most stuff is wrong and personal opinion of people who adapted to today. Movies that get high reviews seem to always bomb now, and movies that blogs trash seem to do really well. People get paid for their online movie opinions, but I have consistently read things that are not right. I am glad though, because the doom that these paid cinephile people write would mean theatre's and politically incorrect movies would not exist anymore. Words matter though. If you are wrong 3-4 years in a row with every opinion and article on your subject matter... maybe try something new. Theatre experience since spring break of this year has been amazing and a return to normal.


For money. I need money. Money needs me. We need to keep buying stuff. Keep the economy strong. Advertisements are good. Marketing is the best. Invest in me. Invest in my company. Gut sovereignty. Free trade. Restrict culture. Exploit people. Plunder resources. Go to therapy. Heal thyself. Pay therapist. Therapist needs money. Money needs therapy.

I confess…

Although I always thought I was first string… I’m starting to realize I’m not and never was. I feel like I’m a resting spot, so you can power up to continue with your real family… as they are all you care about. Too bad you don’t recognize the love around you… next life…

I’m a 40 year old

woman who’s never been married or had kids, and I look at the state of the world and I don’t want any!! I mean, it literally seems like we humans are a virus that the Earth is trying to shake off!! I have friends getting pregnant lately, one of whom is 46 and has been trying for a long time, and honestly it all just makes me cringe! I like kids a lot but in my mind that’s even more reason not to bring them into this insane world. If I’d met the right person in my 20’s sure I might have thought differently but after going through Covid and all these fires and migration crises happening globally every single day, etc., what would be the point when every single climate scientist clearly has stated things are only going to get much worse?? Are people totally insane? Is procreation a form of denial? Everyone I know who has kids seems to have done it for their own personal reasons and hasn’t even thought much about all this. Maybe I’m the crazy one??!


7 bus writing in your notebook :)

On the 7 bus today around 3 or 4pm. I was sitting in the back wearing my fluffy parka jacket,...

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