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Weird

...how "I Saw You" is full of people trying to track down the cute and cool stranger who smiled at them and left, while "Confessions" is all about lying cheating heart breaking sacks of shit who won't go away. The grass is always greener, I guess.

Beyond Meat

I have been reading a lot of pro vegetarian/vegan and anti vegetarian/vegan articles lately. As a self confessed omnivore who has a pretty broad palate I am keeping an open mind as much as possible. There is one thing that is never mentioned in these articles though that creates confusion for me. If meat and dairy products are not meant to be part of our diet why do so many producers of vegetarian and vegan fare go to such lengths to replicate the taste, texture and mouth feel of meat and dairy products?

Oh dear

My partner and I moved into a new place. It looks badass! Weve got our paintings up artworks always cool painted 5 rooms etc painted the floor grout.. So much work we were proud to show off to my family. Turns out they texted and said hey were 30 mons away.. Its the day after valentines day.. Ok so we put the flowers out extra accent awesome.. My aunt takes a tour.. And low and behold in my partners bathroom is a yeaterdays Kitty tail but plug washed and drying like a dead animal on the wall "gotta love men" he hung that to dry like an dead hesd mounted on the wall... Only for my aunt to to walk into the bathroom and say LOOKS LOVELY ! Did she see it? Ill never know. No good deed goes unpunished

Vet

I'm a Vet, no the animal kind, the kind that has been places and seen things you should not see, so yes, I have the PTSD to go with the badge of being a Vet. I'm in the process of splitting with my wife who has had enough of my PTSD. Truth is, I can't really blame her. She doesn't know how to deal with someone who has PTSD, and that's not her fault. I have loved this woman with all my heart and everything I ever had. I always thought she and I would be on the porch in old age rocking in separate rocking chairs and still holding hands. I have put on a brave face in light of our splitting up our possessions now and boxing things up. The truth though is that I'm very afraid of myself after she has left. After she has left, I will have nothing -I have no children, no parents, no siblings, and she is taking the dog. I know that at best I will be living inside my car within a year, at worse, well, I dare not speak it. I fantasize about getting a truck and camper and traveling to see more of North America just to keep my mind off of my impending desperation and loneliness -but it's just a fantasy.

The answer you seek

For reals!? Come ON! It is so obvious. I mean, in your face 24/7 haunting your mind obvious. It's so right under your nose that even you can't fool yourself. You know the answer! You've always known! Now... go get him. You'll be so happy.

What has happened to this city?

Vacationed here with family for several weeks every year from 1988 - 2003. From Alberta originally. I left a sleepy, waterfront city with a rising food scene and plenty of great flea markets, bookstores, coffee shops and culture. Came back with my partner for a weeks' vacation this week for the first time in 14 years. Jesus Christ. Overdevelopment everywhere, towers on every block, expensive as fuck, no heart, no soul. And what the hell happened to all the local pubs? When - and why - did this city change like this?

No mention

I just went over the new BC budget. There is absolutely nothing in it that benefits me or acknowledges someone like me. I'm not married. I don't have children. I have a licence but don't own a car. I'm not a homeowner. I'm not a student. In other words, I'm a working, single adult who takes transit and rents. In the budget, I'm a nobody. Invisible. Zip. Nada. Zilch. No mention.

Hate

I hate that I can’t stop thinking of you. You’re constantly on my mind. How can I get you out of my thoughts? We could never be together, but I see you everyday. I’ve known of you since summer but just got to know you recently. I wish I just ignored you instead of saying hello. For now I will try to avoid you, maybe if we were both single it would be a different story.

My head's swimming

I have no idea what the world is gonna throw at me next, but I gotta get outta here…but to where? To what? It’s like my heart and head don’t agree on anything and the more I try to take control the more I lose it. I mean, will anyone figure out how I could care less about my job anymore? Never mind that, what’s gonna happen when it becomes clear that I’ve long checked outta my life with Dr. Jekyll & Mrs. Hyde? That magic is gone and I gotta have a plan because i can just feel that it’s gonna get ugly when she realizes she does nothing for me anymore. Options options options….c’mon life, reveal something! Anything. Anything at all besides how I’m figuring out where my heart is really at, and it’s clear my heart is somewhere else. One thing's crystal clear: at least I like where it's lookin' and I wanna know more what that is.

I SAW YOU

Bel Cafe stylish fedora

You: gorgeous suit, coffee with 2 friends/colleagues discussing traveling. No wedding ring. Me:...

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