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Moving to America

It is actually nothing like what I thought it’d be. Everyone is friendly... unlike Vancouver and Toronto. People smile, flirt, and are talkative. What’s going on with Canada?

I finally figured out what to put in my will

I'm single with no kids. I've worked hard my whole life. I've never been given anything by anyone who is still alive. Everything I have, I earned. In my will, I will stipulate that my properties will be sold, my collections liquidated, my investments cashed out. All that money shall be collected and then burned.

Days Off

The more time I get off work, the less time I want to spend there.


I love my siblings but they have the power to drive me out of my mind and have done so successfully in the past. Sometimes, I can be reduced to a semi-tearful angry frustrated mess on the phone or even by email depending on what my brother or sister may say to me, and it takes me hours to recover. I always feel that they are unjustly critical or have out me down in some way but it usually involves some complicated family dynamic that should never be triggered. It is exhausting. For example as a single parent, my marriage on the rocks, I struggled to survive on approximately one thousand dollars per month of earnings and my sister remarked that I should try to save money and bought me the book The Wealthy Barber. At the time she and her husband both earned upwards of $45,000 per year each had a near new vehicle in the two car garage of their 3 bedroom bungalow home in a suburb and they owned a time share in Mexico not to mention that their friends were horse owners and took them on trips for competitions, etc all the fringe benefits of being in that social circle. Meanwhile I was living on this low income in subsidized housing and she looked down her nose at me and advised me not to use disposal diapers despite my exema and my full time work schedule with a baby. She told me disposable diapers were bad for the planet and really took me to task on that. Meanwhile take a look at her carbon footprint right? Anyway she had her say and I decided to leave that city for a new home where I never had to talk with her or people like her again, and it has worked out fine. She never once in four years spent time with my child despite the blood relationship, has no kids of her own, and drinks far too much anyway. Good luck to her.

On ghosting

Ghosting may be rude, but it's sometimes necessary. Gavin de Becker, who provides security to celebrities and politicians, writes in his book "The Gift of Fear" that if you reject somebody, and they don't accept the rejection, then ghosting is the safest thing to do. Then they can't argue with you about why you owe them a date or a relationship. Some people can take rejection gracefully. Those are the people who find ghosting to be unnecessary and rude. They are not aware that there exist people who can't handle rejection. And then - here's the kicker - there are people who can't get others to respect their boundaries unless they flip over tables, wave their fists, and yell and scream and scare everybody. I am one of them. You know the type - I was singled out for bullying on the first day of high school, and it didn't stop until the last day. People don't stop hurting me when I say no. It's as if they can't hear me. I have to be rude just to be heard. So if the world is kind to you, good for you. It's not kind to me. Just because everybody deserves respect and kindness doesn't mean that everybody will receive it. The world is unfair like that. Some people need to ghost to have their wishes respected, while some don't.

I will...

... pee in your sink so that I don't have to touch your toilet.

I was

Thinking of things we were all told as children. Wishes come true.. All Fairytales have happy endings... And Cute as a Bugs Ear.... Do Bugs even have ears? And Where the hell is Santa Claus? So

youtube addiction bi polar 2

i have a internet addiction and bi polar 2 which messes up my life, i have 2 friends my partner and my ex, both have my heart i need to break free of internet addiction is real especialy when you have bi polar, everyone has secrets whats yours thanks for listening vancouver

I wish I were more popular

I find that you have the choice of either doing what you want and enjoy alone or doing what someone else wants to do regardless of how much it appeals to you. I almost always say yes to any invites I get regardless of the event or activity and I commit to those invites. But, for love or money, I can't get people to want to do what I would like to do. And it's not like I enjoy weird, impossibly-hard, or boring pursuits.

The grocery cashier customer relationship is strangely intimate.

They know your diet..they know your relationship status if you're always by yourself and buying enough food for one or two. If you see them all the time you have to be careful not be seen as flirtatious and keep things on a strictly professional food buying level.


Beautiful Angel in #10

You, the most beautiful blue eyed blonde woman I have seen. Yes, you made an impression. You were...

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