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In the last 48 hours....

I’ve slept for about 40 of them. I just cannot seem to wake up. I’ve been getting up to take the dogs out and to feed them. Thankfully they seem to like sleeping as long as I do.

I see it from both sides.

Today it's really hit me how incredibly lucky I am to have a job where I can work from home and I have the reassurance that I will have work to do for the months to come. I live in house that has three separate units. I have my own unit, two guys who live across the hall, and three girls who live above me. All three girls who live above me couldn't make rent because they all worked in hospitality and the film industry. All three are waiting for the provincial benefits to become available in a week or two. I am not too sure about the guys, but I think one is working from home? Anyways, this house is my landlord's first investment property. He used to live in it, and him and his wife are generally nice and responsive. He's obviously freaking out. He's actually a super nice guy, and he did take a chance renting out to me. It's actually an affordable place for a pretty nice one bedroom. When he rented out to me he was like, "Me and wife picked you because we think you'd actually make this a home". So, I had the cash and I paid him a day early for rent because I knew he was probably beside himself with stress. He sent me a text saying he was actually so appreciative. So yeah, I am one of the lucky ones. But hey, it wouldn't take much to knock me off my feet either, and I see it from both sides. Everyone is hurting. Our city has been fragile for so long and this is the event that just brought Vancouver to its knees.

19:00

I'm grateful, not just to medical folks on the front lines, fighting the good fight to keep us all safe from the Virus. I'm grateful to those folks in essential services that still wake up and go to work to keep the lights and heat on, lines of communication open, food and clean water available - all those services that prevent human civilization from descending into anarchy. I'm grateful too to those folks that are making the right choice to listen, stay safe, and at home. We humans are a powerful force, that can accomplish amazing things when we unite together in common cause. I'm truly grateful and delighted that there are actually so many of us doing our part. I lift my cup to you.

You're a big boy now

I know someone who lives at home and he's 35. His parents have told him he has to go. They are going to pay about 80K to get him out of the house because he is a dependent....not independent. He will not make it on his own in this world. He can't even do a simple task that anyone from age 5 and up can do. And he's consistent with it. He needs to get the fuck out of his parents place and learn what it's like to fend for yourself. You're a big boy now....time to act like one.

Essential Services huh?

I work in a grocery store. Last year, I got sick at least six times from customers. I'd start my shift feeling fine, and by the end of the night, I'd get that tickle in my throat that meant I've caught a bug from someone. I don't make much money, and I don't get sick days so I had no choice but to come in sick and (cautiously) power through it in order to make ends meet. Every day I see customers coughing and sneezing all over the place without bothering to cover themselves. I remember learning in elementary school that you cough and sneeze into your sleeve or elbow. The worst part is when people lick their fingers to open the plastic bags and then start picking through all the produce which now has their saliva all over it. I just got home from my shift at work today. Before I left, a man sneezed loudly without bothering to cover himself. Some of the spray got on my face. So even during this period of social distancing and being extra vigilant about stopping the spread of a virus, this fucking idiot couldn't be bothered to be considerate of others and cover himself. It took all the willpower I had to not punch him in the face. If I so much as said to him "sir, please sneeze into your sleeve" he could have thrown a hissy fit and complained to the manager (these people bitch and complain about anything) and I'm the one who would be suspended or fired because that's how things work in retail. I've been wondering for a long time why people act like this. Why are people so inconsiderate and irresponsible? I actually think its because we celebrate narcissism in this country. Selfishness and self-absorption permeate the culture. Think about it. How often have you heard the idea "I don't care about anyone else or what they think, I do what make ME happy." Somehow, "fuck everyone else" became a virtue here. And when I think of the spring-breakers heading to Florida's beaches in YOLO mode the whole lesson of the Corona virus pandemic really becomes clear: this pandemic wouldn't have been nearly so severe if certain people just gave a damn about other people by practicing good habits and hygiene. They chose instead to act like pigs who worship at the altar of "me."

What about the other numbers?

We get a running daily total of COVID deaths and people who've tested positive. How about a running total of people who've committed suicide, domestic abuse and people out of work compared to what they were before the virus (have those numbers all gone up)? I get the government wants to save us from ourselves and not have everyone get sick all at once, but aren't there other options? Can we not implement something like Taiwan and have a balance between regulation and the norm? Isolation is making people crazy.

PRO/CONS COVID edition

PRO: I'm not self-isolating with my ex. I wish them the best, but some people can't be helped. CON: No way this pandemic finishes without me developing a drinking problem.

Date distancing

Who knows maybe social distancing could be a good thing when it comes to dating... forcing us to take things slow and not jump into bed right away (or for months)... plus it may give us more reason to try activities together other than dining out or drinking at pubs... but I confess that I could really use some contact...

OK

It’s kind of fun watching the extroverts deal with sheltering in place. Videos of themselves exercising and dancing at home. I take great pleasure in watching their attempts at getting attention while enjoying my solitude. But the secondhand embarrassment is real.

Sick of my "roommates"

I’m trapped inside with the wife, kid and worst of all a teenager. I don’t really like any of them right now and know they don’t like me!

I SAW YOU

Hey, my eyes are down

I’ve seen you, and I feel you’ve seen me.. ...

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