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How did this happen

My former husband of 22 years, the father of my 3 children, went back to his highschool girlfriend a few months after he left me. My kids love her, they do family style stuff with him, her & her kids all the time. It's like *we* never existed. And yet I am still alive. This is the kind of thing that would have me suicidal and probably will again. I don't understand how people can treat each other so badly. He always had a thing for her but even I am shocked it has come to this. And her? Her? She was at my wedding. Her ex was my ex's best friend and my daughter's godfather. We planned showers for each other. I cannot believe I am able to wake up every day and live my life with this level of betrayal. I can barely talk to my kids about this. My strength is not what it should be. How am I still alive when others have deemed me this worthless?

Age Is a Number

I met this great guy but the problem is I am 36 and he's 20. The sex is amazing and he's so much fun to be around. Its just I want a family and he isn't ready. He's still is in college and living with roommates. I feel like I am holding him back sometimes. I just feel so stupid because I knew how old he was when I fell in love with him.

Things I've Done and Never Told Anyone!

I was driving in Queensland Australia when I came across a large python stretched across the road. I grabbed the python, which was about 10ft by the tail and dragged it off the road because I knew if I didn't, it would get run over. I'm not particularly skilled with snakes though I'm not totally afraid of them either. However, I did jump when the snake swung around at me with it's huge mouth open wide. True story.

I hate stuff sometimes

I hate the nerd Romulan in Star Trek: Picard that is dating the robot. He's just sooo annoying. Why does the Romulan have an English accent? You know they're trying to hard to make him seem charming. He isn't.

Sardines on sandwiches

It's my new lunch routine. Oh no... I don't put it in the microwave. I'm not a jerk like that... but hey, may as well enjoy lunch. It's stellar, yummy, and fishy... I love the tangy tomato sauce that it comes with. It's my new fad diet :)

Brain Fried

I have ruined my brain. I click on something, and I can't wait more than five seconds until I click on something else. Anything else! Click click...sweet dopamine...

Scared to cycle

I'm not scared of the road, what I'm afraid of is getting a decent bicycle only for it to be stolen, or a part of it stolen. In a city like Vancouver where the transit infrastructure is sub-par and overpriced, cycling feels like a great option. That is, until I remember all the times I've heard people getting their bikes stolen or damaged. It would be lovely to have more secure bike lockers around the city.

I deleted instagram

Shows over. 150 views on what I made for dinner or did Saturday night and they're all either strangers or "friends" that don't text back or get in touch the one day a year they're in town. It feels like everything is more special because I'm the only one enjoying it and now everyone is wondering what cool thing I'm doing.


I need to get up earlier, Always seem to be a day late and a dollar short. Life


I confess I haven't had my shit together for decades.. pushing away relationships and meeting people who I actually would like, and clinging onto those I don't really care for in order to get myself together... thought, never really got myself together during that time. Decades and decades and decades... now my time has passed. I just needed someone around is worse than nobody, sometimes.


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