The thing I miss most from the last year is night time. Not artificial or pandemic nighttime but natural nighttime. Walking down any of the venue avenues and feeling the buzz from whatever crowd is buzzing around. whether it's an operatic crowd, a metal crowd, a comedy crowd, a birthday crowd, a happy crowd, a drunk crowd... and walking past and listening as it gets fainter and fainter and then as it disappears, the slow low bass of the next crowd. night time. I miss the organic noises of the city at night. sometime they'll be back.
Every day I feel worse and worse for some drifting acquaintances. Their mental health has really deteriorated since Covid and they've taken to occupying their time by making wildly false accusations about a number of shared acquaintances that couldn't be further from reality. It's gotten them in quite a lot of trouble but they don't seem able to stop. I've tried to be there for them many times, to my sometimes own demise, but it only aggravated their condition. Every time since I've reached out or seen them, I couldn't make sense of what they were saying and they had a crazed look in their eyes. Now sadly I've decided staying away is the best and safest decision since I'm not sure when they will react with actual violence. From what I've read their fabricated projections coupled with their lack of remorse will take a turn for the worse. Knowing that their condition is shared amongst their close group gives them the confidence and enables them to not seek proper help. I know it's for the best to stay away but I hope daily that they find the help they need. It's out there. It's giving me a heavy feeling of guilt, but for my own mental health, I can't keep being swept up in their delusions and worried all the time.
If there’s one thing that turns me off, it’s people who are superficial hypocrites. I cannot relate to these types because I prefer to tell it like it is and be myself. My rule of thumb has always been to never say sorry or hello when you do not mean it. There’s nothing worse than bullshit.
My first summer job in Ontario 20 years or so ago paid 5.85 an hour. Since then I've saved as much as I can...but 20 years later I think I would have had more fun just spending it. The money is devaluing faster than I can miserly penny-pinch it toward retirement goals.
I have been working from home since last March and I never realized how much of my day was wasted on useless office birthday parties and events. A lot of productivity is lost just due to the workplace drama that occurs on a daily basis. So and so is married and slept with so and so. This person is talking about you behind your back and is trying to get you fired. Don't get me wrong I miss going to coffee and some of the social interactions at work. I don't miss the 1 hour commute and being forced to sit at a cubicle all day long. Most people don't realize whether you have 4 hours of work or 8 hours of work you're spending a large amount of your day just trying to look busy or stretch out your work for the day. Saving so much money not having to drive to work, pay for parking, or childcare expenses.
I am getting twice as much work done and I hope I never go back to the office.
It is so exhausting to have to pretend to be nice to stupid people at work.
I did some work for an old flame for free. They started the exchange with saying "I didn't want you to think that I was contacting you because I needed something."
Haven't heard from them since ...
Each time a crow dive bombs me, I throw pretend rocks at them. They go crazy. Now we're even!
When I notice I'm not really registering stuff I'm reading I do a mental countdown 10, 9, 8..... 3, 2, 1 and get off the internet unless I find something interesting.
Sort of like a trick that I learned at an early age to get out of the nice hot shower before facing the cold cruel world.
I want to please my partner so much I lose my arousal from the pressure.