I used to walk around stores and malls, watch films in the movie theatre, sit in cafes drinking coffee and read or write for hours. I used to travel. I used to love the sauna, visit the gym and go to restaurants. I used to hang out at friends houses. Few if any of these things feel safe or wise to do anymore. My friends have moved away. I am left wondering what is fun in my life.
My tree is no longer producing lemon fruit and I am frustrated and upset. I think I will have to cut this tree down to find closure.
I am married to a really amazing man. The problem is, I can't shake the memories of being with women. It drives me crazy sometimes. I want to be happily married but its so hard to let go of the thoughts. I search for other married women that can relate to me but I don't think anyone knows how to talk to other women about these kinds of struggles. There must be someone that understands. There must be other married women like me.
No one really knows it but there's a set of facial exercises I do for toning. It's for tension release too but let's face it (pun) it's mostly an attempt to defy gravity. You can imagine that because they involve your face, when doing them you can look pretty ridiculous.
What I've realized is that there's an unintended benefit to having to wear a mask. Over these past 18 months I've gotten waaaay more reps in every day than I used to! Walking, in the elevator, shopping, on transit...I've been doing my exercises and no one's the wiser. I do leave out the eye roll ones though, nobody needs that : D
(exercised smiley face there)
I am done with Craigslist every ad I respond to is a scam.
Apartments and jobs (anything on that site really) as a matter in fact I don't even need my phone anymore.
If something is not useful why bother using it, I say.
So done with Craigslist !
I lived alone since I’m 16 and in all those years I could not love anybody or anything ! Now I’m 32 and scared that I am not equipped with a love system in me ! Ha ha
I guess I always liked freedom of not attaching myself to one place , person or a thing !
I’m trapped in a relationship with my wife, I feel like I am wasting the last few good years of my life. She controls every aspect of our lives, finances, friends, Sex life and children. She only seems attracted to me if she’s been drinking and makes me feel like garbage when she’s sober.
I can’t get out, yet I can’t go on….
On my way to work this morning, I tripped a bit on an uneven piece of sidewalk. I caught myself and immediately laughed out loud which was super weird b/c normally I'd cringe with embarrassment. I registered how different that was for me. A man standing just ahead of me to my right, had noticed me stumble and laugh and as I past him, he too had a big smile on his face "I've done that too" he said. "Those things just come outta no where eh?" I said back, smiling.
I kept walking and a security guard about 20 feet along had seen it as well as my interaction with the first guy. "Have a good day!" he said with a big smile. "You too!" as I kept walking.
I gotta stumble more often. And loosen up. And not take life so seriously. It was so spontaneous and fun how 3 strangers in our own orbit shared a lighthearted connection for a moment.
26 years ago we were married because we had a 1 year old child together and we wanted to do the right thing. There is nothing like regret to remind you that you are alive.
I'm a stag and want my girl to sleep with other men. She is not interested so I have made myself a stag. I am wearing her threesome anklet and love going out so other people can see I'm a stag