This began a spiral that ended my relationship and subsequently my old life. Sometimes I miss her but I know that right now I am the best version I have ever been. I still struggle like everyone else and have off days but god damnit when adversity strikes I just seem to have a knack for picking myself up, dusting off, and reincarnating myself.
The only thing I am still upset about sometimes is that she dumped me over the phone. I may be a lot of things but I never deserved that. I suppose everything is exactly as it is meant to be in the end.
Gives me another reason to hate people, at least other men. Who the fuck gets off on leaving urine on the toilet seat for the next person to enjoy? I certainly don't. As someone with a penis, I think there should be some contraption in public bathrooms that cuts your dick off if you leave pee on the seat. Yup, that's my confession - I think some of my fellow men should be dismembered for their lack of hygiene. What use would a penis be for them anyways? That's the fucking truth.
If I disappeared right now the only people that would notice would be my boss and my landlord. I make money for the former and give money to the ladder. It really seems like my only value is as a tool. I'm a tool. It's not worth living for. Everywhere I go i'm just an obstacle for important people with clearly important things to do.
The mass experience of isolation during COVID lockdown is reassuring for me. Hearing people express the pain of social isolation feels like validation. I’ve been socially isolated by the mental health closet & poverty for so long that I’ve lost all my friends & opportunities for friendships with peers are almost non-existent. Welcome to my life.
A friend of a friend is coming out from Quebec for a quick vacation and the selfishness of it makes me so mad. Why would this person think they deserve a non-essential vacation more than anyone else in these times? They aren't staying long enough to self isolate any time. Blows my mind.
I killed a good friendship because it was making me crazy trying to figure out all the lies!
Equals 19 pounds gained, thanks goodness got some time to bike it off!
I cannot understand the mentality of someone who would "charge" a disabled person, just like a rhino. Commercial Drive, around 2.30 this afternoon. Three young women totally blocking the sidewalk while walking. I have a huge leg brace and walk with a cane. You looked straight through me and bashed into my left arm. Never mind social distancing, have some common sense. If you had injured me or knocked me down, you better believe I WOULD have called the police and sued you. I wish I could say this has never happened to me or my disabled friends before, but it is distressingly common. If a person is distracted or on their phone, that's bad enough, but to do it deliberately is sociopathic.
6 years ago when life wasn't good I had to sleep at work for about 4 weeks on and off. It wasn't in a cozy office either.
Funny when people show you who they are. My boyfriend told me during an argument that his boss hates me. The thing is, I’ve met the guy once for less than 5 minutes. So how does he hate me? Guess who’s a two faced shit talker! Someone’s getting dumped. When people show you who they are, believe them.