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Missing You

I want to tell you how much I miss you. I miss your smile, your crinkled eyes and your laugh. When I see a picture of you, it makes me happy, but also forms a knot in my stomach. I miss my friend, I miss my love. I wish you’d think of me too. I wish you’d miss me. Through everything that happened, I miss you and love you still. One day I’ll be strong enough to tell you, or better yet. Strong enough to let go.

3 main bus

CAN people stop getting on the bus through the back? Wtf. Half the people don’t pay. That’s no fair. And everybody’s waiting in line half the time. I’ve called translink before. Nobody is supposed to do that. Drivers don’t speak up in case passengers would hurt them. But I get so pissed not being able to get on cuz some jerks think they can skip the line and be smart by getting on the back. The hell.

It happened again.

This time in a grocery store. A beautiful woman came along and I became over-aware of her and could not find a way to say hello. I’m late 40’s and I bet this has happened 4,000 times in the past 20 years! It’s painful for an extrovert to be this way. I need a small town. People talk to everybody. Everybody is everybody’s business. I like that. Is it being sensitive leaving others undisturbed so they can carry on shopping? Is it pathetic to suppress the desire to interact? Is it disingenuous to pretend to have something to say over the produce section? “Hey. Nice apples today don’t you think?”. Is it weakness pure and simple?

There's An App for That

It seems increasingly easier and easier to go broke by using all these apps on your smartphone.

Loo Why?

There is someone that keeps pissing on the seat in our office floors shared washroom. There is only 2 female stalls. Ladies, why the hell do you keep pissing on the seat. Don't be the initial pisser. Bring a darn wet wipe with you if you're so scared, otherwise invest in some Depends. Don't ruin washrooms for everyone else that needs to piss.

Tie = Old Fashion

I was wondering why anyone would want to wear an article of clothing around their neck that anyone could choke them to death with at anytime, but realized the incidents of that happening were probably more figurative.

C'est la vie..

I know right now I'm not strong enough to give him my blessings.. I hate him. You bring out the worst in me. I know I'll be happier without you, but I still love you. One day all of this will be different and I'll thank him for stealing your affections and forcing me to take my heart back... One day I'll thank you for leaving.. and one day I'll forget you completely..

Going to work drunk

I might get hate for this but for the past month I've been starting to go to work drunk. My job is in the enentertainment industry so it's not affecting anyone. I still show up on time and do my job well. I don't drive so thats not a worry. None of my coworkers have noticed and frankly I love my job more. I see nothing wrong.

Bipolar mess

Bipolar disorder is ruining my relationship with my boyfriend. The last week I have blown up on him over nothing. I'm stuck in a manic episode. People seem to think manic means super happy. For me it means extremely irritated and angry. He's been very patient with me but lately I think he may be seeing someone behind my back ... and I don't blame him. I've been feeling suicidal. I've been pushing him away and acting extremely irrational. I try to stop but it's like I'm a puppet and someone is pulling my strings. The worst part is when I think I'm actually being reasonably mad and he says "have you taken your meds today?". I immediately tell him to go fuck himself and storm off but then start thinking maybe he's right... I'm just crazy. I don't want to live like this anymore. I sabotage every single relationship. I just don't want to be here anymore. Want to drive as far away as possible and keep on driving.

What do you all do?

I'm curious what you all do for work and how much do you honestly make (and approximate age) to afford to live in this city. Because I have two degrees and I ain't killing it.

1988-2018 - 30 years of masturbation

Celebrating 30 years of self administered orgasms. Started out as a biological urgency. It always has been satisfying in between sex with men.

Are men and women capable of just being friends?

I'm a woman and I've been trying to prove to my friends that it's possible for a woman to just be friends with a guy. So far it's been difficult, to say the least. Most guys I've met and talked to get the wrong idea and think I'm interested in them, when I'm just being polite and making conversation. Another guy friend tried to take advantage of me, steal a kiss and grope me when he had me alone. I'm seen as "a catch" I suppose, but I am still holding out hope that I will be able to meet a decent man I can be friends with somewhere, somehow. I'm sure it can be done, I've seen other women with guy friends. And I'm not interested in friends with benefits either. It would just be nice to go out with a guy, as friends, without any of the expectations of a date.