I confess I feel great! Vowed in April to stop buying monthly passes and to walk or cycle everywhere I can, and also since July have stopped eating Tim Hortons and other fast food... and it’s fantastic. Losing weight and spending less never felt so good. Fuck you translink but thank you also for your shitty service pushing me to be healthier. So always look on the bright side folks <3
I was suppost to tell somebody something today and I chickened out.
I tried too before and some work business got in the way.
Is that a sign, maybe not too?
I had full intentions of saying something this morning, before work. I did!
Try Again Monday?
I want to trust again!
I'm tired of being told that I'm "doing it wrong" in a broken system. I'm just the only one who actually cares about doing it right.
I'm severely allergic to my best friend's cat. Even after taking allergy meds, I have a bad reaction for the next 24 hours. I haven't told them because their company is worth the wheezing.
I'm confessing that my life is mess. I didn't go to school for the longest time being afraid to get out there. I eventually went to school and fell in love with a career I can't have because of my epilepsy. Now I have debt and I don't know what else I want to do. Guys aren't attracted to me, I'm broke living at home at 26 and my mental health is declining as I write this. I'm just so broken down. The worst part is, I turn to food to comfort myself through all of this.
I'm not as likable as I'd like to believe. Why else is it so hard to make plans with the people I know? It's a tough pill to swallow. I am so lonely and I want to change, but I don't know how.
I used to be rich, had everything handed to me houses, cars, cash. never had to work or put effort into anything, since I lost it all i now work full time to barely pay rent for a tiny apartment and have no money left over to buy anything. I strangely feel better about myself and more fulfilled now than when I was rich and lounging around on yachts.
You pretty much come to hate so difficult. It was never this way before, leaving was as simple as "Road trip bro" "Hell ya I'll go steal a car"( and I really suck at stealing cars that was always buddy's job) Now I confess, I've forgotten how to board a bus. :( Baby steps one bus at a time.
I have the worst work ethic of pretty much anyone I've ever met. I hate work and always have. Any kind of work. You could name 1000 jobs and I would have no interest in any of them. I've managed to hold down jobs most of my life but they have been entry level retail stuff that you can kind of coast through. I realize this is a bad way to operate but I feel like it is too ingrained to change. I wish I could be a 'hard worker' like the world tells me I should be.
I feel like I have decades of repressed anger that has been making itself more visible lately. I am worried I will snap at someone who doesn't deserve it. For ages I have been the 'I don't get angry' guy but now I think that was all a lie. It's slowly bubbling up. I've just been pushing it down and one of these days it's going to get out one way or the other.