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Remember the Seinfeld episode

about the “low talker”? I have a neighbour like that, drove me nuts. I just ignore him now, if you’re going to mumble, I’m not going to acknowledge you.


There is absolutely no creativity in hip hop. I just read some lyrics and confirmed that. I couldn’t even understand the lyrics since they are in a completely different language. Drake and Kendrick Lamar make no sense and you need a decoder or translator to understand them.

Cloudy Summer

I really liked it. No awful heat swell. No real rain. No daily forest fire evacuations on the news. Perfect, beautiful summer.

"The Guy with the Scorpion Tattoo"

You work at the McDonald's closest to my house and I used to see you almost every other day.. Ive even seen you outside of work a few times and we happen to always make eye contact? I'm usually pretty dead-on at reading people's energies but I can't seem to grasp an understanding of you in the slightest? Now realizing you're a Scorpio, (from the tattoo behind your ear) I feel that makes a bit more sense but I'm still super curious and kinda really want to be your best friend or something?? I don't know I kinda hate everyone but you seem down to earth. — Libra x Scorpio


I moved into a new place and spiders infest the outside of the house and my entrance but also inside. I've killed off every spider I've seen in here but I still see them from time to time. One species I've found in here are 'giant house spiders' as well as faux black widows outside. Well, they looked faux...I didn't get that close to both of them. Every day there's a new web spanning across my steps to ground level and I need to use my broom to pull it down before leaving. Coming home I do the same. Spider webs between both houses where spiders make new webs. Power washers are used to wash the spiders away but they only come back. I kill them so they don't come back. I'm not thrilled to see what fall brings me. It will get dark and I will get a face full of web. There are many different species of spiders here. They are not helpful to humans when you need to constantly kill them and remove their webs. There's just too many. I have peppermint oil but I don't think it works well. I put a drop of oil right by a spider and it didn't move. Well, I gotta figure out what holes are open and close them for fall. Goddamn....The rest of the place is great....just the spiders...


Since waking up at 10am I have taken 3 healthy shits. I really wonder if I'm backed up more than I thought I was. I wanted to leave the house earlier but I'm not so sure if I should leave just yet. I'll give it another hour

Is it just me?

Recently my mother was surprised when I mentioned went to popular post-secondary school some years ago. She said she didn't know this. Then I had a friend (supposed to be a "close friend") be really surprised at another LARGE life event of mine that happened some time ago, but I talk about it ALL-THE-TIME. Is it just no one cares when I speak, they just node and move on. Why do I even speak at all when people who are supposed to be close to me know nothing about me then I just get talked AT. Sigh.

Thanks, Mom

In front of a group of people, my mom announced that my ass was big and fat. I don’t know what compelled her announcement. I weigh the same as I always do this time of the year and I’m within 10 lbs of what I weighed in high school. I feel mostly disappointed that even someone who is your own mother would delight in trying to publicly humiliate you. Normally I make efforts to see her, take her out for meals, pop in and say hi, but what is the point in kindness when someone is waiting to sabotage you? I’ll never repeat this behaviour on my own kids.

Anti Trump Onliners

It's weird. How can you truly "hate" someone you've been posting daily on your personal twitter account about for 3-4+ years and counting. If you're obsessive about some one, do you truly "hate" them? if the basis of ones social media feed is Trump and has been for years...

Online Dating Has Made Us Into Horrible People

The overwhelming amount of choice, the search for perfection, everyone seeking someone really attractive so none of us settle for anyone average looking who would adore us unconditionally, ghosting, bad communication, not caring about how you make other people feel by not responding to their messages, being “too good” for someone (perceiving oneself to be out of someone’s league or better than others), being flakey, bailing on dates, being dumped by “poly” people who decide to see be exclusive so they hurt their casual partners in the process (happened to me with three partners in a 6 month period), emotional exhaustion... the list of things we do on purpose or unwittingly just goes on and on... Sometimes I do some of these things, sometimes they are done to me. I get hurt a lot, I feel inadequate and a failure sometimes because I’m not good enough for some people I date or see profiles of. We’re not intentionally trying to be callous, indifferent, or hurtful but we all do it. Even the nicest people IRL, those who claim to be compassionate, emotionally intelligent, thoughtful, and sensitive (there are many of you in Vancouver) are capable of doing many of these things I list.


Hello Jenks!

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