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I wish it was not the case.

I may be nuts, like really crazy. Or something I feel like the world around me is not real. I feel like I am the only one who cares, but am told that caring is not even close to my wheelhouse. I don't get it, I make improvements and no one cares I do better it's no good I'm still the same pos. I really try to empathize with others, if I cry I'm weak and disgusting, if I fall in love that person tears me down for being too this or too that and heart broken, sad and lonely beings tears that bring further disgust. I just do not want to live here no more. This planet is a really shitty place, full of shitty people. Sorry I said it didn't feel real to me, I'm sure most to all of you are really great people, I'm just nuts.

Giv’r a go

I usually do my shopping on Sunday...I’m finding everyone has the same idea as I and it’s a nut house in superstore. Now I’m thinking I do it Friday after work since it’s an easy detour. Friday nights should be fine, eh?


I don't know if it's a new children's toy or some oddball, giggly human in my building, but I keep hearing this "hee hee" noise when I'm in and out of my apartment - it's not creepy, just startling. It sounds almost cheerful, but just at such a low volume that you wonder if you really heard it. What's really sad is that I've lived here over a decade and hardly know any of my neighbours and am suspicious of a little laughter.

When I was young

I always had a crush on Mary Ann in Gilligan's Island. She was super cute... but I just saw a photo of Mary Ann and Ginger side-by-side... Ginger is my favourite now. I don't have a time machine and they would think I am weird because I am from the future and won't hold doors open for them and now how to cook. But I can dream...


Face it, not is it only prevalent in fundamentalist churches & mosques & evangelical christians & other religious groups, plus certain feminist speakers & certain male frat boy type stand up comics (who ironically will always be single), who make crude jokes about women as part of thier act(s), but it's also among the mainstrean gay, lesbian & bi community.....that's if you don't "pass", if you do pass, you shouldn't have a problem

oh my god, sexy time.

It's so ironic that the 20s are hormone crazy and I had trouble getting laid because I was nerdish of some variety. You know what though? I think I was afraid to be myself too. Now, in my 30s, I am meeting tons of women who are incredible on so many levels... all I had to do was be myself. As weird as I am, it's attracting them a lot more.


What's Pier 1? I knew it existed but I never knew what it was. Oh well. Goodbye another retail store... more room for condos.


I was reckless when I was in my 20's. I miss that.

Hairy is hot

Saw a fashion show online where the model had a skateboard andhe was wearing a shrunk sweater showing his tummy with a hairy happy trail and the tightest shorts with the fly down, his pubes exposed. He wasn't a skinny model, he was beefy. I don't care for long hair but he was hairy in all the right places and I keep going back and looking at that pic because he's super sexy. Body hair does that, makes a guy sexy as hell!


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