I'm on my own this year for various (covid-related) reasons & I am struggling. I'm sure I'm not alone in the struggle, I just wanted to come here & wish everyone a Merry Christmas, whether you're alone & having a hard time or dealing with a toxic family you have a hard time with, or having a first Christmas without a loved one. I hope you can find it within to find some good things about this year to appreciate, even if they're not as abundant as usual.
Is just oozing with humanity, which is why I like it, especially during these dystopian times. Something about this space that makes me feel more human in Vancouver. I wish I could buy everyone a round of beers at the local pub. Cheers✨
I like my job. I like the people I work with. However, as someone who has disabilities, going to the gym is the only way I can physically and mentally prepare for employment. I work hard outside my work hours to be a capable reliable worker. In 2 years of COVID the only time I crashed and burned was April May of this year in the 3rd wave restrictions. I am much more cautious this time. Giving my notice is tough, but with no physical and mental health outlet, I can not work a higher stress job.
I love them. LOVE THEM. There may be nothing nicer than the smell of roasted peppers. Red bell peppers are best, but I like to use greens in some cajun recipes. I'm not able to eat tomatoes, but I've learned to make a pepper sauce as good as (or better than) any pasta sauce or salsa. Banana peppers or poblanos are about my upper limit for heat. My dream is to live somewhere quiet with lots of nature and hiking and have a garden with lots of peppers. And cats. I love cats too.
I want to say to say thank you to the beautiful individuals that replied to my post a while ago.
I was feeling extremely anxious, alone, depressed, and a bunch of other stuff. I posted on here and the positive responses helped me a lot. It made realize that I am not the only person in the world feeling the same way, but rather there are many of us in the same situation.
I’m extremely grateful to you all. It helped me a lot and I’m doing much better.
Thank you so much and I love you all.
Have a safe and nice holiday.
I got together with a coworker for lunch yesterday. It was so nice to connect and talk about stuff. We basically exchanged thoughts on how fucked up Covid really is and it made us truly cherish the time we had together for lunch. Fingers crossed that hopefully this storm will soon blow over. Some day. Maybe.
…and I think I fared better the 1st winter surge. I made personal goals, I enjoyed being on my phone, I made efforts with friends. This 2nd winter surge, I’m tired, I haven’t made efforts for people, I hate the content that I watched last winter, and I can’t muster the energy to go do outdoor things. I haven’t had a happiness high in months. Thank god the days are now getting longer, that is something that will guaranteed progressively look and feel better.
Is the woman who is in love with me, and I her, would finally admit it to herself and call me.
I'm a sad bugger.
There are people who believe their lives matter more than others but I am not so arrogant to believe I can cheat death. The last couple of years, when everyone seemed to be complaining about losing family, friends, classmates, workmates over differences it saddened me. They almost seemed to be bragging about it. While others circles were gleefully shrinking, mine expanded. It's not a competition but I can't help to think that at a time when people should have been coming together, they chose to use the years rather unwisely. Whether it was attacking others beliefs or jumping to judgment, it greatly devalued and cheapened the struggles everyone faced, while forcing nonsensical wedges. I see and hear them and they're still talking through an undercurrent of jadedness about these losses. I can hear the self-inflicted misery they feel committed to but don't want to live in. I'm grateful for the ability to have reconnected with people estranged and built new healthier relationships. No matter what people may think - usually the loudest - it doesn't matter as long as you stay true to yourself and stay guided by your internal light. You will attract the right people. It has been a great joy getting to know more people in harmony with humanity through these times. I'm encouraged by what I see; a desire of people to reconnect with themselves and others in meaningful ways again, less division, more unity, where everyone is welcome.
I find it exhausting to hear about climate change, plastic bags and all the such from people who out of the other side of their mouths are sad they can't travel to sunny destinations. Let's get rid of fossil fuels but the not ones that take me to the places where I destroy other peoples beaches and towns.