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Punching bag purchase.

My sanity and patience is being tested during this Covid-19 pandemic. I need to buy a punching bag or else I'm going to put my fist through my living room wall.

Such low effort men on the apps

I am a woman. I use hinge. If I make the effort to comment on something on your profile and you decide to match but then “invite ____ to start the conversation” don’t expect a response back. Put in some effort. I am going to start giving you guys 24hrs to say something then unmatch.

I had a dream...

... last night. Imperial Dollar Bills for a re-united British Empire, with the insignia of the Order of the Stare of India, the motto HEAVEN'S LIGHT OUR GUIDE. Then I was rudely woken up.

Well darn..

I had gathered courage and was just about to ask out the girl I've liked for awhile.

Beside myself

I cant beleive these turn of events. So typical What is with this life, anyways ? Im a strong person. Even more than I realised, but a person has limits. I am determined. But Whats Next ? Bumps in the road So many bumps... Bumps

Miss you

Silver Lining, the wake-up call is something, right? It takes a mess to make us pause and think. Life is short. We could die any minute. I was kinda hoping the people I miss would contact me. They haven't. I haven't contacted them either though. But I'm sending out those feels anonymously.

Web streaming decisions

Normally I don’t watch TV... but now that I am stuck indoors, I need to do something with my time. It is cold and rainy outside. Therefore, I have decided to re-watch all the episodes of Bay Watch. Let’s cozy up to some popcorn!

This is difficult

The same night I watched my mother die is also the same night I found out my cousin committed suicide. I feel so gutted. I’m in such disbelief, I just want to be numb. Because of this Covid 19 bs, I can’t check into the emergency for my emotional distress in regards to my traumatic losses, as I’ve done in the past before. I’m trying so bloody hard to stay strong, but I just want to call the dealer buy a bunch of dope and get high. I feel so alone and isolated.

direct dial

I havent spoken to the woman i love in a couple of years. I miss and love her everyday but i am not responsible or thought full enough to be in a full time /all the time relationship. (its beyond the scope of my abilities) Anyways my wife does and will talk to my adult children.The last time she was talking to my daughter she was being overtly which my daughter kept asking her if she was dying? (She told my daughter she is not dying.) The mrs knows full and well this is going to get back to me....i just wish she would use the phone and call me directly instead of going through my kids.

Maintaining enough food at home...

I’m getting worried about maintaining enough food during ongoing self isolation. We tried ordering food from save on but all delivery spots are sold out. If someone in a household gets sick how is anyone in the household supposed to get food? And yes I know we are supposed to have 2 weeks worth of food but what if you get 2 weeks worth of food and then 1 week later get sick? I appreciate that a lot of improvised options are popping up right now but is there any government advice about this? I am also kind of confused about the mixed messages. If we are supposed to have 2 weeks worth of food then everyone is going to be stockpiling somewhat (especially people with families) but then we are told not to “panic shop” or “stockpile.” And in order to maintain a pantry of 2 weeks worth of food that means either making consistent trips to the grocery store or buying about a month’s worth of food. I understand that it’s still okay to go to grocery stores but what happens if someone in the household gets sick? Also, obviously a lot of people can’t afford to fill their pantries. Anyway, thanks for all the community spirit and support and bravery.


Hey, my eyes are down

I’ve seen you, and I feel you’ve seen me.. ...

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