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I never remember a dream...I think the Vodka helped.

I had the weirdest dream last night. Without going into all details...I haven't seen a love interest in 2 years and my dream was about her. She was strung out in this dream (I don't know why) and with her other strung out friends. In the room where I found them there was kissing, cuddling, sexual acts being performed, watching, smoking, drinking and such. I watched my love interest give a blowjob to some guy. At this point she never saw me there. Then she did and came up to me..kissed me...rubbed my balls through my pants and said "I'd love to fuck you". So I started taking her pants off while she was sitting on a chair and I uncovered her chicken legs. Not kidding. Chicken..legs :| Anyway...more happened before the start of my story and after the chicken legs but I woke up with her on my mind. Naturally, I started to masturbate to a picture of her and even my dick felt different while I was stroking it. I should go see what the hell she is up to. Maybe we will hit it off.


Wish I could find a man like the one Jill Scott sings about in He Loves Me.


I am going to come clean about a rather socially offensive and debilitating issue I have. I am responsible but am driven to contribute and continue. I eat a rather intestinal unfriendly diet. Cruciferous veggies, dairy products, eggs, cereals like musalix etc. Results..nixious anal gas. I have ruined numerous amorous encounters, job interviews, movie outings, sports events and elevator trips. I desperately need medical and psychiatric help.

munch for lunch

Really felt like I hit it off with the server at the restaurant the other day at lunch. I bet she gets hit on constantly so I kept my interest in asking for her number to myself. Totally regretting it now but I still think it was the right choice. Work is work. Maybe I'll bump into her at a better time to ask her out some day.

Wrongly Accused

My secret fear is that men will continue to be treated as an expendable commodity. There is nothing to help these men and all the power is with women. The #metoo is creating trial by internet / social media. What about the proven 28%: Involved false confessions. There are countless men wrongly imprisoned for crimes they didn't commit. Lawrence McKinney. In took him 31 years in prison to get his name cleared and a settlement. Angel Gonzalez served 20 years. There are Innocence Projects that are there to help these men have show dramatically frightening stats. DNA materials collected (before DNA was tested) have shown 1989: The first DNA exoneration took place 37: States where exonerations have been won 20 of 354 people exonerated served time on death row 14: Average length of time served by exonerees 4,832.5: Total number of years served 26.5: Average age of exonerees at the time of their wrongful conviction 42.5: Average age at exoneration 39 of 354: Pled guilty to crimes they did not commit 70%: Involved eyewitness misidentification 41% of these cases were a cross-racial misidentification 32% of these cases involved multiple misidentifications of the same person 27% of these cases involved misidentification through the use of a composite sketch 45%: Involved misapplication of forensic science 28%: Involved false confessions 51% of the false confessors were 21 years old or younger at the time of arrest 35% of the false confessors were 18 years old or younger at the time of arrest 10% of the false confessors had mental health or mental capacity issues 16%: Involved informants 256: DNA exonerees compensated 184: DNA exonerations worked on by the Innocence Project 152: True suspects and/or perpetrators identified. Those actual perpetrators went on to be convicted of 150 additional violent crimes, including 80 sexual assaults, 35 murders, and 35 other violent crimes while the innocent sat behind bars for their earlier offenses.


I have a big ol’ crush on my bus driver. I have a lot of respect for, and am attracted to, people who are really good at their job, like he is. But he’s married so I can’t pursue anything. I’m really going to miss seeing him every morning when the schedules change again in April.

Elevator Blues

Me again. The guy who can't stop cutting the cheese. Today, it happened in the elevator, with about 9 people. I knew it was comming, and hoped to sweet Jesus I could hold it back until the lobby. No such luck. Around the 3rd floor, it quietly came out. It was rancid. The poor people. Everyone looking around to see who passed the wind. It was like a Seinfeld episode. It just hung in that elevator. I wanted to apologize, but chickened out. I gotta see a doctor. This is ruining my life.

Obsessive Jealousy

I don't think you can blame me for it not working out since I was the only one putting in any effort. You just didn't want it to work out, because you were quite content where you were. You just weren't content with where you saw me going. So screw you, and your bullshit.

Stop asking

People keep asking us when we're having kids and I joke that the one I have is already a handful (my husband). The truth is, most of our responsibilities already fall on me because he's bipolar and a bit unstable at times, and smokes so much of everything that I would be constantly worried about kid-watching abilities. We love the thought of having a kid in theory, but I just don't think it's in the cards for us in practice. Every day is already some new kind of struggle, let alone the responsibility and stress a kid would add. But I can't really say all that to everyone who pesters us about it, so please consider that the situations of others might not be so cut and dried before you ask the same question that's been getting the same answer for years.

Old John

I was in While Foods in Kits getting a coffee. I overheard this old guy talking to his friend about how he likes to "pay a few hundred bucks for a young girl" instead of dating. He "advised" that if you "get them when their new you can get in there first.... Only one has left because I'm old enough to be her grandpa". He also said, "girls like that should always be open for business". What a disgusting old perv. Does he not read about human trafficking etc? He's not buying independent escorts by the sounds of it. I gave him a harsh glare and he liked his lips at me. I said loudly to the barista, "can you please call the manager to have this JOHN removed from the premises? He's discussing buying prostitutes and licking his lips at me. It's making me very uncomfortable and I would like him to leave". Everyone nearby looked at him. Can't a gal just get a coffee in peace? Fucking gross.

You don't resent me

You just resent that loving someone like me, wasn't part of your plans.


Off leash dogs. Be responsible pet owners. Please have some common curtesy. I love dogs but you need to watch them. They should not run free in buildings or outside when you can't control them. I am fostering a large puppy. I have him on a leash, and have to keep him from other dogs right now. We are trying to walk home away from you and your dogs surround us in a pack barking and you ignore it and stand very far away. My puppy is going crazy, he is big and I am trying to manage him. I guess I should let him off leash and he can take care of the misbehaved dogs and the owners. :) But if he would be the first one to cause a scene or sue.

I guess I've accepted

that there will never be an 'us'. But it's taken me about 8 years to get there. And I've derailed my life so much that I'm completely lost as to what to care about instead.


Vancouver Art Gallery

I noticed you when you first came into the art gallery. You were there alone and had a security...


Savage Love: Asexuals are aces

For these individuals, there is no inherent wish for or desire for sex, and there never has been.