I cried today
Just out of the blue
Its me !!
I'm mad at myself
For being so stupid
... to pay women to treat me like a serf. I get them to take my money without giving anything in return. I guess I just don't want to be free. If only we could institutionalize this on a national scale, I think I'd walk around with a perpetual boner.
I may actually need a fecal transplant sometime soon. I feel my bowels are getting worse living in this modern world. I dream of the days where we would be out running with the wolves. Hopefully the opportunity comes up soon. I would love a restart in this area.
Seems like all my stuff is always destroyed... even with neighbours our blue bin never comes back and it mysteriously appears with those douche bags the next week. Fucken terds. I want my own place finally.
I confess that I feel like an idiot because I keep being sad about the possibility that I hurt the one I love. I hate to think of him being hurt. The reason I feel dumb though, is because I know that he didn’t care when he hurt me. Maybe he wasn’t hurt or sad about losing me; I don’t know, but I just can’t seem to stop worrying about him and his feelings.
Had such a great day today, feeling good. Wish I could hold this feeling forever.
Yes I watch (& read it) it no it's not perfect but I think you get a general idea of what's happening more than the "alternative" media you find on the left & right who only want you to feel sorry for who they support & want you to think what they want you to think & agree with, that's why I watch City news & CBC & CTV, not Democracy Now or The Raw Story or Daily Kos or Truthout or OpEdNews or World Socialist Web Site (all on the left) or Breitbart News or Blaze Media or Free Republic or Rebel News or Infowars or American Thinker on right....both sides...both delusional
I am a mature man in his early 60's. I love to be spanked! Bare ass with a strap or a belt. No one close to me knows this, and it is a bit frustrating. Once a month I go to a professional spanker to satisfy my special needs. She pulls my pants and underwear down to my ankles and straps my bare ass until its beet red. The spanking has the desired effect on me, if you know what I mean! I wish it could not be so secret, but that's the way of it!!
I feel terrible about this and I wish it wasn’t something I focus on so much but I can’t help it. I can’t stand the look of fat on the human body. Obviously skin and bones isn’t the best look but I actually like the way that looks compared to any amount of fat. Any lumpy fat or muffin top just looks awful to me. Anytime I see a “curvy” woman on tv or the internet the first thing I think is, ok lose 40lbs and you’d look great. In my mind curvy just means fat and I’m just as critical with my own body and it makes my life hell. I wish I could stop. It just goes to show how conditioned we are by commercials and magazines. I grew up in the 90’s when heroin chic was in fashion and it really messed up my perception of beauty.
Why is it that no matter which condo I live in, I’m dealing with some neighbour who either is a smoking fiend, does renovations for years on end, or suffers from Tourette’s and screams random obscenities in the middle of the night? I’m a nice quiet person and I do my best to be a considerate neighbour, but for some reason I’m cursed!