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I bought this cute little book at dollar tree. Called " Follow your dreams they know the way". Thought I would pass along a quote or two, from time to time. Ive been a little angery lately and kinda gave up for a bit. But never for too long..lolToo Ok here we go. "Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck" Dalai Lama "Too many of us are not living our dreams because we are living our fears". Les Brown


I lived in the Philippines when Durute was elected, and am sorry to say to my fellow Filipinos, that Durute is not a Filipino. His great grandfather was Chinese. Now all my family lives in the Philippines knows that since Durute has been in power, Chinese immigration has gone unchecked, and undocumented. My family's neighbors has been entirely baught and turned into a Chinese village. And Canadians know it well too, that when China is upset with Canada because of Huawei, that Durute is also upset - and sending Canadian garbage back at the same time. My country is gone and has become a province of China, and it's happening in Canada too.

Man up

To all the single men out there who want a committed relationship...have the balls to speak to a women you’re interested in. Be assertive, be a man, engage in a conversation, step up and take the lead. Stop being a bunch of pussy’s! Thank you.


Completely out of the blue today was unusually weird.

I against I

Over the course of my life, I've been gaslit to explosion, trolled, manipulated, lied to, coerced, you name it. I've been there, got the T-shirt. Still, I confess that the absolute worst mind games are the ones I play with myself.


Lately I'm trying to love myself more. I've been doing things like sleeping, yoga, eating lots of vegetables, taking medication, no alchohol, and volunteering when I can find the time. It is helping. This specific combination of things is going well so far and I hope that even as my life changes I can keep finding things that work. I had such bad mood swings in the fall that it almost killed me. I've also tried to stop looking for other peoples validation to fill my lack of self-love. I think mostly though, it is the medication that has helped. I tried a bazillion things before and they didn't work. Trauma really fucked me up and I could never get my brain back to normal. The small amount of research on the long term affects of anti depressents freak me out though.

Offline shopping

You would think with the rise of online shopping, retailers would want to enhance the customer in-store experience. Not so. 1) Bare bones staff. No one to fucking help you. 2) Shitty music blasting, pushing me out the store because I can not think with the sound level so high 3) Staff wanting something from you: no I won’t give you my name, email, phone number or postal code 4) change rooms filled with dumped clothes on the floor. It’s like my house but worse: piles of unwanted polyester. If my clothes weren’t breaking down, I would rather be anywhere than the mall looking for replacements that fit me.

Feeling gratitude

I thought I was done with Vancouver, but I just came back from Abbotsford and after being there all weekend I am so glad to come back to Vancouver's filthy streets and smelly people. Because it's not appearances that matter, it's what's inside that counts.

Who’s immature?

When you accuse someone of being immature, and of trying to change another person simply because they refuse to accept that person’s abusive behaviour, you’re being entirely unfair. The immature person isn’t the one who stands their ground in the face of a control freak narcissist. That takes maturity, strength, self-confidence, and courage. I didn’t do anything more than set reasonable boundaries regarding acceptable behaviour within a relationship, (the parameters of which were always being defined by that other person), all of which I was completely willing to abide with myself. If the other party doesn’t respect someone’s reasonable boundaries, obviously they don’t respect or value you enough to be capable of entering into a mature relationship.

I'm Sorry

You just were'nt strong enough to love me. Goodbye


Pulp Fiction employee

I was there picking in an order Sunday the 23rd. Afterwards as I was browsing you came out to...

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