I feel a really profound loss due to a collapse in communication with someone I can't stop thinking about.
I also feel really sad, unsure of my future in general. I can't find a way out of my conventional life nor can I escape feelings I have trouble putting into words regarding my relationship...although I know it's not good feelings. I feel alone, uncertain about everything that is my life these days, save for my kids who are a successful legacy out of all this.
I just can't shake the sadness. I wish I knew how to fix this collapse to make things better.
Given up on hope, fairytales and magic.
I so wanted the world to beleive again.
Me too :(
I don't think you're eating your best life in BC if you're not having a bowl of home-cooked spot prawn linguine, luke-warm Warba potato salad, or Van Island ice cream sprinkled with local blueberries, for summer! I love our province and all the wonderful foodstuffs we gather and produce here; and, it saddens me sometimes that folks living here don't have any clue.
I saw a commercial for a nicotine withdrawal spray for people addicted to smoking. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if it was possible to create something similar for people addicted to alcohol or other drugs?
I'm happy all these stores are closing because new stores will open in place of them and that is exciting.
I confess that the lousy weather we’ve had lately is perfect for me. Everyone around me is complaining but I’m not, because this year I’ve not wanted to go out anyway. I miss my partner so much that going out just makes me miss him even more. All the places I love are the places we went together, even the back yard. Some day I know it’s going to get easier, but that day’s not here yet. So as far as I’m concerned, it can keep on raining.
I kind of feel like the rest of the world has finally come around to my way of thinking. I've been agoraphobic for a couple of years now. I developed a full-on social phobia because I kept getting injured by other people's carelessness - having things dropped on my head, being bashed in the face by people's backpacks on buses, etc. The "treatment" was to go out more and let other people get close to me. Ha! Maybe I'm getting the last laugh. Other people ARE hazardous to my health...
During this pandemic, I had gotten used to being the one that either stepped off the sidewalk to create space or cross the street entirely to maintain social distancing protocol. But this month, people have finally started to do the same for me, and i must admit it feels great!
They would always be walking with this dispirited expression and it wouldn't matter if they stepped off the sidewalk or cross the street. I would just stare at them until I was certain we had eye contact. Where I would then proceed to thank them seemingly out of the blue; since this has never occurred for me when I did the same for other pedestrians. And guess what? Upon hearing those 2 simple words, these people would totally light up. They knew I recognized and acknowledged their efforts and the change in their body language was profound.
So, I'm gonna continue to do the same whenever the situation arises cause you all turn into cuties! Keep trudging along in these trying times!
Traffic has gone;fuel is affordable;bills extended;kids are at home with their families;parents are home taking care of their kids;fast food replaced by home cooked meals;hectic schedules replaced by naps, rest,and relaxation;the air seems cleaner;the world quieter;people are more conscious about hygiene and health; money doesnt make the world go round anymore;doctors and nurses are being praised and recognized instead of celebrities and we now have time, finally, to stop and smell the roses, and dont forget to look up at the stars....OUR NEW WORLD IS QUITE AMAZING. Author unknown-submitted by jjames
I think there is a parallel between the two. We were afraid of the people in authority, had to listen to them, but would act up and test their power a lot of the time. I think the Canadian government is about as powerful as our high school administrators (teachers, principle, etc.). **yawn**