But at the time I was a married guy and even though my former wife was a secret psychotic sex addict and coke head, I would never cheat on anyone I'm in a relationship with. I have ethics and a heart and a soul and I am respectful. I liked you as a person but honestly, even if I was single I gravitate towards a totally different vibe. I like tiny fuckmonkies. My word. Good word.

Why do I torture myself? It's summer, and I know very well that people boarding the bus are more likely to be smelly after sweating or not washing or not deodorizing, but I take the bus anyways. I should just bike it from UBC to Burnaby, or get a better job so I can afford a car.

I wish people could read the room and follow my lead. Instead, they push, tirelessly and relentlessly: asking for photos of my family life, asking for my social channel handles, asking for me to check something at my home for them, asking where my parents were from. These are virtual strangers or coworkers who I maintain strict boundaries with. I don’t ask anything about them. I am only here to pay the bills, do my workout at the gym, etc. Here for my reason only. Not here for you in any way:shape/form. They look and ask about the brand of food on my desk. I never even go to their desk and don’t care about any of their food/consumption pattern etc. I have zero interest in you and you pushing will not ever make me interested in you. Leave the hermit crabs alone, even if they’re forced to work at the same office address as you. I asked one of them, after they waited to leave the office at the same time as me, Why are you so interested in me? They finally got the hint. It’s weird how when you are not interested in people, how it brings out this crazed desperation in them.

I confess that these stupid self checkout machines at stores are a waste of time. People get sucked into thinking they're saving time but they aren't. They're actually keeping people out of work by using them. The stores are making massive profits off our backs including the additional fact we have to bag our own goods. I was at a store today and this poor woman was having difficulty with a machine and the lone cashier had to go over and help her twice with it while the line behind me grew longer. The woman complained out loud about the machine not working and it always seems to happen so I asked her why is she using it? She's putting people out of work by not going to the cashier who is alone because the store under staffs and forces people to go to the machines. I see the self checkouts take far more time than a cashier. Of course every idiot in line behind me ends up going to the self checkout while the lone cashier fends for themself. Garbage. Stand your ground people and boycott this crap by using a real cashier!! And some of you may wonder where the jobs are going.

I have a really hard time trusting people now. I used to be so open and trusting that people were intrinsically good with good intentions, but that belief was smashed a few too many times. I recently tried hard to trust a person who had badly let me down in the past because of some things they said that made me think maybe they’d changed and there was hope. But I wasn’t ready to completely trust again because I was waiting for them to prove that they were being honest before I let my guard down completely. I’m so glad that I listened to my gut instinct this time before I got too comfortable with it, because they showed that they couldn’t be trusted just as I was afraid they would. I’m sad about this potential relationship being lost, but I’m equally sad about the complete loss of my ability to trust anyone. I don’t think I’ll ever get it back and that feels very lonely.

On the seawall today, nobody around and I start to hear this magical sound. Came around the corner and off in the distance there's this guy passionately playing a piano and singing like he didn't give a shit about what anyone thought of him. He was squirming around, missing notes, hollering while his voice was cracking. It sounded good. It was nice to see someone unself-conscious, it's been a long time since I've seen that. It made me loosen up just the right amount.

Your cold sores are so sexy......sweet Jesus.

I’m 35 and recently have gotten into an open relationship with a woman 17 years older than me. She’s absolutely gorgeous and so sweet to me. She’s really helped me feel that there are some really amazing women out there after someone I was with a long long time was absolutely horrible to me all the time. Thank you universe for putting this absolute goddess of a woman in my life.

There is a serious lack of single quality men in the Lower Mainland. The good ones are either married or in relationships. I am left with a bunch of players who just sleep around 24/7. Where are the good looking men who can carry on a conversation? My last two dates went like this. Date #1 - Didn't even show up. I was at the restaurant and he ghosted me. Date #2 - He came drunk. The Manager of the restaurant called a cab to get me home. Dating is impossible here.

same same same - start of summer, and I get the pang on loneliness like a stone in the heart . Isolation becomes so much sharper in the bright light.