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I am back to monogamy

After trying polyamory, I realized that humans were never supposed to do this. I just felt like total unappreciated crap all the time. I think only a few people can truly pull this off, but I see a lot of people suffering through it and lying to themselves that it makes them happy.

YouTube diet

I literally spent so much time down the YouTube rabbit hole that I forgot to have dinner. And now it's 9 at night and I don't want to eat this late. Damn it.

My guts are heart broken

You’ve broken me. I want so badly to forget you. To not want for you or miss your wordsy ways. But you keep lingering. I double over with the emptiness you have left inside of me. In this wonky world of life and responsibilities our kooky strange sould found each other and it was really pretty awesome. As much as I want to purge you from my linger. I wish was as easy for me as it has been for you.

Coolest Chick in BC

Man I wish I could see her again. I've just ...never been kicked in the nuts by another girl in my life. It's not that I like getting kicked in the nuts, at all; it really really hurts. But.... I feel like I was forever imprinted to respect her because of it. And honestly, when you find someone you really respect, it kind of inspires you try. And that's what she brings out of me and I'll always love her for it. She makes me want to try. So gentlemen: I've bought new runners today. Ready your ballsacks!

I am a sinner

Bless me Vancouver for i have sinned. I am in lust with my neighbors wife. Our walls in our apartments are paper thin and every time they have sex, i feel like i'm right there. She looks like the Girl next door, dresses conservatively, very polite, always says hi but in bed she is very vocal, very graphic on what she wants her husband to do,language like a trucker. 4 nights a week and this goes on for 2- 3 hours at a time. At first it was great but now it's becoming annoying, the only good thing is i've cut my porn viewing to a minimum. I would like to tell them how loud it is, but it would be embarrasing for all

In The Neighbourhood

Back when I did online dating (maybe 5 years ago) there was someone who lives a block away from me that was all flirty-flirty all day long over text initially but then dropped off after meeting in person. I see them around often, they are always with different dates. I act like it never happened.


I'm getting so resentful of paying substantial amounts of good hard-earned money and receiving crap quality and service nearly everywhere here.

The Boss

Why do employers bother to recruit top tier talent only to squander their skills and fail on promises to build and develop their careers? You can't complain that it's "due to fit" that no one good ever stays at your company, when the real issue is never promoting within,offering incentives or new challenges.

My Condo is my retirement.

So I get really annoyed at politicians with huge salaries and gold plated pensions wanting to destroy the only retirement plan I have.

Fast Food Menus These Days

No, I don't want to "combo that". I'd like to see the price, please, and not an ad or list of the calories.

Advice on a sticky situation

I've been seeing a married person for about a year. I know, asshole move but they said they'd be ending the marriage and so I kept going. and I fell in love. But, I don't want to be the "other" and I don't think the marriage will ever end the way it should (with respect)as long as I am part of the equation. I also feel like I need to get control back over my life and not just sit around waiting for what might never come. So I said all of that, said I'd be there when there was an opportunity to actually be in a relationship and I stepped away. Now they say that if I date anyone there's no chance for us in future. Again, I know it's an asshole move to do what I've been doing, but I don't know what to do from here.

I was wrong

I thought being the “secondary” to someone in an open relationship was the perfect scenario for someone as independent as me. Turns out being secondary to someone else sucks. I can’t do it anymore-even tho it’s all very respectful, I still end up feeling sad. Back to the drawing board I guess.

I think

I'm falling in love with you. The smell of you on my clothes drives me fuckin bonkers

Women's Bodybuilding and Education

Okay, this is a bit meandering but bear with me. I watched a documentary the other night on bodybuilding and they were interviewing Iris Kyle (f), the most successful bodybuilder (of both genders). Women's bodybuilding is fascinating to me because these women worked as hard as the men but because excessive muscle is deemed masculine, they have been essentially penalized. People love women's swimsuit models, but female bodybuilder's are 'gross.' Ms. Olympia was cancelled after 2014. The interviewer was asking Iris if she would be willing to have less muscle to fit into lower categories for competition (again, the 'gross') and she was saying it wouldn't be respectful to herself to limit her progress. She is being punished for working as hard as the guys and is being advised to step back a bit. So anyway, I had this thought that women in academia basically go through the same troubling problem. By committing themselves 100% to a subject, often there is neglect of family, personal connections, with their male partners insecure in their relationship with smart, beautiful, successful, driven women - eventually all the women seem to end up single. It boggles the mind, but I see case after case of beautiful, brilliant female profs who could probably have what society deems happy lives (married with kids) if they backpedaled their research a bit, but why should they have to?


A moment in the reeds

I first noticed you- cute blonde, short hair, leather jacket, in the hallway going back into the...