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I often have flashbacks to memories that are unhappy or uncomfortable. If not flashbacks, it’s like spacing out to another place or daydreaming. These moments come on really quickly, last a few seconds, and then I feel subdued after them for some time. Is this normal? I find they are worse after alcohol, so I think I will cut out drinking.


I’m seeing a guy who I’ve known for a long time. Right now I’m ready to throw in the towel because he is so childish and so ridiculously cheap. Seriously, it’s just incredible. He won’t come out and just say how he feels. Instead, he “punishes” me every time I insist on my boundaries being respected (I tell him he can’t use up all the food or I tell him what groceries he needs to buy, etc) by withdrawing and making up some bogus excuses for why he can’t see me. “The gas is too expensive.” “I have an appointment 6 days from now.” Etc. So childish! These things ONLY happen when I’ve told him that he needs to pay his fair share of the expenses I incur because he’s spending so much time at my place. His cheapness knows no bounds. He’s not being “ thrifty”. This is unadulterated cheapskate territory. He literally will do absolutely anything to avoid paying for anything. Sure, he’s debt-free and yay for him. But he’s only managed to do that because he gets everyone else to subsidize him for everything. Including his family and the few friends he still has. Now he’s asking me if I’m sad because he just told me he’s not coming over this weekend. No dude, I’m not sad. I’m DONE.

Cozy hot meal

I went out to a Greek restaurant for the first time in a while since the pandemic. It felt very nice to have a hot meal and glass of Greek Red wine again, especially on cold days like these. Things in my life haven’t been going very well, so having comfort food of some sort took my mind off my troubles.

Cover Model

Ever do some drunken reminiscing about someone (minus the drinking in my case) and you're thinking of all the bad times, doing the whole wut-did-i-ever-even-see-in-them... and then you come across a photo of them and remember how freaking hot they are.

Covid plumpness

I had put on some pounds so started going to the gym, worked really hard to burn calories, I was starting to look good, then covid hit. I tried going a couple of times when they opened again but nobody was doing the sanitizing/mask wearing they required, so I stopped. I'm still somewhat active but not to the degree I was before and the weight was creeping back on. Finally, out of desperation, I decided to start skipping breakfast. It worked. My weight has actually dropped quite a bit in the last few months and I don't have to lift weights or run on a treadmill forever to do it. I'll go back to the gym again when it's safer but I'm surprised how effective just missing a small meal can be.

Thirty years ago

Hello from Patrick so thirty years ago I was a mid twenty year old single guy living in new west and working at a drug store. I placed an ad on one of those phone chat lines a young women let's call her Jennifer who was a student at UBC, we hit it off we talked several times a day for months we helped each other out for emotional support ,laughs and made plans to meet But being a young guy I screwed up and we never met and lost contact, life went on and here we are now. With covid and a health scare the mind wanders what happened to this bright ,cheery women I can imagine she is happily married and possibly a family, I don't want to cause any troubles but it would be interesting to find out how she is and how her career went?

Down for a Shag

Just not down with all the other bullshit that comes along with it. Time to buy some sex toys.


Hope has been tormenting me for years. My hope is not grounded in any reality. It exists despite all evidence to the contrary, and no matter how much I can understand the impossibility of what I hope for, it remains. In Greek mythology Pandora accidentally releases all the evils into the world, but closes her box in time for hope to remain. So hope can be understood to be an evil, and it's the one evil I can't seem to be rid of.

Eating out

I'm not so happily married, I will go into the missed connections, dating sites, when I don't feel seen in my marriage. I use it like an ego boost when I feel low. If I'm really dying for supply, I will write cheesy ambiguous song lyric post so my partner won't know it's me, and talk to women for a boost. I strung along and abused one in particular, it's part of my condition...Anyways, just my luck who walks into the same restaurant me and my spouse were waiting, aaarggghhh. I hunkered down into my booth so she couldn't see me. I think I got away with it. My hamburger tasted good and I didn't want anything to spoil that.

Summer and fall

Without fail I get a brutal cold every year. Or twice. Transit plus working in homeless shelters where the staff and clients keep passing it back and forth. I’ve never felt better this year. I’m wondering if I should always wear a mask on transit and work from now on?


I miss you at my local Grocery Store

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