I had the pleasure of sitting next to a very sexy stranger for three hours. It made it hard to focus on my reading. Definitely not complaining. If only every outing to the tea shop could have such company. I'm already addicted to the tea. Add a sexy woman and, well… If she is there next week then I will definitely strike up a conversation.
I started watching a show that’s 55 minutes long....2.5hrs ago. There’s 9 minutes left.
It's hard to have the energy to be around a friend whose problems are of their own making who puts minimal effort into trying to improve their situation when you're fighting hard in your own life only to be held back time and time again by things over which you have no control.
I shouldn’t like him as much as I do but I can’t help it. He’s beautiful. He’s wonderful. He caresses me. He is so fucking nice to me. I’m so grateful. Spending time with him is like the perfect cup of tea. I’m so lucky but when he’s away and needs space I feel so lonely. I need to work on that.
Today after work, I went to get gas. I first walked into the store to pay and since there was a customer in front of me trying to count his change, I had to wait a few minutes. Once he had paid for his things, he turned around, and asked me if I was getting gas. I said yes, and he told the attendant to add $5 to my gas, as he said he had made me wait and he felt bad. I reassured him that I wasn't in a hurry and that I didn't want to take his $5, as he looked like he didn't have a lot himself. He insisted and walked out of the store. It was a very, very sweet gesture and whoever you are, thank you so much!! It was completely unnecessary but I truly appreciate it. I hope someone does something really nice for you soon. I will pay it forward and thank you again.
I tried cocaine and then ate a cookie that had 100 mg of THC. Big mistake. My body went into convulsions and I couldn’t stop shaking. My vision went blurry. All I could do was breathe through my mouth and my heart raced so fast it felt like my blood vessels were about to explode. I drifted in and out of consciousness thinking this was the end. I honestly thought I was going to die. So I lay down in my bed, thinking that I would probably pass away in my sleep. Thankfully, I just woke up hours later in my bed. I’m still alive and breathing oxygen. I may not be the most religious person in the world, but somehow I feel that God has given me a second chance. Time to clean up my act and get my head straight. No more blow or fancy cookies for me.
To cook delicious 5 course meals. Work from home life rocks.
Are people sleeping less? I hear more and more people have recently begun sleeping less! Is it maybe since we sit around all day some days now adays... or did it start happening for you on a certain date !!! Thats the crazy part most people I've heard this from are saying the same season/month dates. I'm wondering if any of you guys are !
I hate those evanglists who trick people out money in the name of goodness. They are the worst kind of thief in my mind.
i'm conflicted. i'm having a very hard time. i adore the wrong person who bears no interest and even if they did, things would remain as they are. where i'm constantly ignored and then pulled back when they feel they've almost lost me. they're too self-absorbed to realize they've hurt me. it is terribly unhealthy.
i'm no advocate for seeing someone to get over someone but i do feel if the pandemic weren't here, i could go on some wonderful dates and it would all be fine. i might not fall in love but it would help.
now, i spend all my time alone. afraid of casually meeting someone, afraid that my mental health doesn't validate it. it's been especially awful this month. i am deteriorating, i feel so physically alone. i go to work, it's all fine, i come home and the sinking in my stomach reverberates throughout my body. i just want to kiss someone and be held, i guess. have company. that's it.