Over 2 years, I lost 9 friends to suicides and od's. This was 2016-2018. I have lost a few more, and during covid every family member I know has lost someone they were close with. mine was a heart attack of someone under 40. acute pancreatic cancer was another. stroke was another. od was the other.
there's no point to this ramble. there is no soap box. there is no nothing. life is pain. but life goes on. it's all it can do.
I've been cooped up too long, watching too much news on TV... and now I'm falling in love with BBC news broadcaster Mike Embley! He seems so nice and intelligent and cultured. And we are the same age (mid-60s). I want to bear his children in an alternate universe. Haven't mentioned this to hubby.
Sometimes a simple smile can make you day.
Thank you Universe
how people are going to practice social distancing on the Skytrain station platforms while waiting for their train. Not to mention inside the train itself!
I used to commute on Skytrain a couple of hours every day but I retired last year, I couldn't have timed it any better.
Today I did something that Im deeply ashamed of.I yelled "what the **** you staring at?
This is not who I am.I take responsibility for what I did and Im not making exuses for my actions.
But I felt judged and discriminated against so my defences went up and I lashed out.
I was assembling a wheelchair on the sidewalk when I felt this strangers eyes on me.
I wont see her again but if I do I will apologize and hope she forgives me .
I am socially inept because I have been alone for so long. At least, that conclusion fits
I miss music videos. And CD liner notes.
I'm fairly socially isolated at the best of times - live alone, chronically ill and on disability. It's been much worse since March when things shut down. I'm really struggling. I don't have a lot of people to reach out to, and when I try to, I don't get much response. Please, if you know people who are in similar circumstances, check in on them once in a while.
MY social anxiety is so bad and covid has crippled me further
Child I talk to much I know this. I get hurt feelings I say silly stupid things, but I hate myself the most for not hearing a friend's words. They may have stepped up big time no I'm sure they did. I just can not remember a fucking word they said, I'm so saddened by their removal from my life. Ive sorted a lot out but, I wish I could here what it was they were going to say. So thank you friend for trying for me and I'm so sorry I let you down. I hate that it's too late now, hind sight thing. Please think of my stupid ways as a lesson as to whom is not respecting boundaries. You know already you deserve better much better. This message has been conveyed to I will always remember you but not what you said I'm such an asshole. One secret (if it was that) that is safe from disclosures.