Fate didn't agree with what I thought was destiny, so I have been lost a long time trying to find my purpose. Now I pet stray cats. I don't even feed them, just pet them. They do tend to like me though. I'm not sure if that counts as a purpose.
I realized a long time ago that dating apps just don't do it for me. It's impossible for me to find someone using apps to have a meaningful relationship with, although it may work for other folks. That said I still browse dating apps occasionally, but only when I'm doing something else that requires a distraction from real life.
the world is over. But we’re all still alive, just hanging around waiting for the next thing to happen. It’s strange, no?
I find cloth masks on the ground And take them home and wash them and wear them! Wonder if Dr. Henry would agree with this?
I spent all night watching made for TV movies from the 70s last night. They were cheesy but good. One thing I noticed were people’s bodies. I know it’s a movie so they’ve hired good looking and fit people but honestly everyone looked so fresh and naturally trim and healthy. I just don’t find that people look like that anymore. I think factory farming and fast food has really messed with people. Since when did XXS become a size? That used to just be a size 4 or a small. I think we all need to get serious about our health and the planet. Don’t just watch documentaries and think that things are doomed. Actually do something.
The first time I wore a mask, it was a non-medical mask from the dollar store. I bought ten, for ten dollars, thinking it would last the required number of wearings for this virus. I was sure a vaccine would be found. I thought about the mask all the time and how little I enjoyed it because it left a bad taste and smell in my mouth, but as this situation dragged on I finally found a couple of cloth masks that are easy to wear and thanks to my laundry detergent they smell fresh as well as covering my mouth and nose while remaining breathable. On short trips and longer ones, it is doing its job making me feel protected, isolated and safe, as crazy as that may sound. My mask is now my "friend" but two weeks ago I could not stand wearing one. I still lower it whenever possible to inhale fresh air through my nose, but it gives me a comforting feeling to wear it, much like a favorite blanket can give a feeling of cosy security.
It's as funny as hell when you think about it. But at the time, it was probably the worst moment in my dog owning life. It was waking up to the smell of dog poop at 7 am, so strong it made me dry heave. It was the realization that there was a steaming, wet pile of feces not a foot away from my face. On my pillow, if you please! Yes, my dog took a dump on my bed. It's been years since, but that's the first thing that came to mind when my daughter called and told me she was getting a puppy for my grandson. I said, "Do you remember that time when Dex pooped on my bed?"
Lying on my back in bed and crying gets tears in my ears and makes me even more of a mess.
I didn't have a mask so I had to buy one from 7-Eleven so I could get on the bus. After I opened it and put it on I realized it reminded me of woman's panties and I thought well, that's a switch. One that I'm very okay with. Who needs fantasies when you can wear a mask. Don't hate me for what I like. Women are delectable and everybody pretends that this isn't a thing but it definitely is. A very enjoyable one. ewww there I said it for you. Let's move on.
29F and I’ve never had a fulfilling relationship where I’ve felt genuinely cared about. I was single for most of my 20s where I didn’t put the focus on dating. In the last 2 years I’ve made more effort on dating apps and would initiate chats and dates but couldn’t find anyone willing to commit or show any real interest. Really feeling like I’ll be single forever and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I’m friendly, caring, and put effort into my physical appearance but have yet to find anyone who cares about me even half as much as I care about them :( not sure if ranting or looking for advice but here I am