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He wants kids

We had to end it because he wants kids and I don’t. My heart is broken and has had a hard time moving on. I haven’t ever met a man like him before and he hasn’t met anyone like me. We cried like babies but we are in our 30s. Making adult decisions sucks. I still dream of marrying him one day, but that probably won’t happen. Here’s to hoping that I may come across a child free man that has his shit together (or someone with teenage children).

Becoming more open to my life

Life was rough for the last 10 years or so. I drank a lot, smoked, did a lot of yoga. It was a daze. Those were my 20s. Now I'm an adult women in her 30s and it is time to throw away all my young baggage.


I always thought I was bi sexual now since I have been out feel more gay I like the the sex with man but like the companion of woman

Family "Friends"

I let some of my grotesque family members befriend me on Social I can report them when they share fake news or hate speech.

Erotic dreams

I have soft-core erotic dreams of making love to beautiful women. It's all foreplay though, with nudity and fondling, but never goes as far as any penetration of any kind. It's like my brain is censoring my sex fantasies.

Bar Fly Entomology

I have no idea what to do at a bar. I find myself shy, overwhelmed, and bored at the same time. I'm not keen on alcohol either. Though I would love to sit in a dimly lit cozy environment and hear how people are thinking and feeling while drinking something soothing and healthy. Maybe there's also a designated people who give hugs each night... I just realized that I used to have all these things with my roommates and our friends for many years before we lost our house a year ago. I desperately miss my home and the family I once had.


I'm completely enamored by my male co-worker. I know the truisms "don't dip your pen in the company ink" but I sure wish he'd dip his pen in mine.

One off

I tried cocaine for the first time in my life. My tongue felt so numb and my throat became dry. I started talking really fast and then my hands got all fidgety. Other than that, nothing serious happened. It just didn’t do it for me. Thankfully, I did not get hooked and I have no interest in putting that powder up my nose ever again. See ya.

32nd World AIDS Day

From time to time, I sit and I cry thinking about all the people who aren't here anymore because they died of AIDS-related illnesses. These people are missing from our world, from our communities. People who aren't so different from me or my friends. I won't get HIV because I have access to PrEP. My friends who have HIV will likely live long and healthy lives, because they have access to effective treatment. But that's not true for everyone living with HIV, even today.

Nautical disaster

There is so much I want to say. But there is a danger to cracking the airtight seal that keeps all of my words safe inside of me. I might unleash an ocean of emotion that drowns everyone who dares to listen.


Waiting for the Bathroom at Uncle Abe's

We talked while we were waiting in line for the washroom. You let me go ahead of you. You were...

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