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Getting old(er)

It is starting to happen to me... my friends and relatives are dying .... I am now over 50 and have looked up several people I used to know, and some of them have passed away... my body is breaking down, getting sick, developing aches and pains, in my job my employer is not relying on me much anymore, no more chance of promotions, in fact I will be lucky to hang on to this job... soon to be a senior citizen ... using a cane... inside I feel at least 25 years younger but my body is not agreeing with that... still enjoy life, even more in fact

Carrot eating competition

It will be so much fun instead of hot dogs. Approximately nobody will show up.

Better to of never loved at all

When I was with my ex girlfriend she would would always be bringing her niece to my place. Me and this little girl would do everything together watch movies, play, and cuddle. We would even pretend to be napping so we could cuddle longer but after me and my ex broke up I haven't been able to see her . I am never gonna forget the last day I spent with her If i knew that was gonna be our last farwell i would of told you I love you a thousand times It's been a couple months and I've gotten over my ex for the most part but not this little Angel I don't know why but I've started thinking of her all the time

Not really a confession, but..

I am doing my very best to be the change I want to see in this world. I have a child, and I am trying my hardest to teach this small person to one day do the same.. It's been difficult, but I truly believe our future generations are something some people are so willing to overlook when it comes to helping ourselves and our planet. I understand the issue of global overpopulation, but our children have the capability to make a real difference if they are given a solid opportunity before they become stressed out, jaded, bitter, unfriendly adults.


Why not me?? I am okay with it and all because I care about you both more than you could know but I still gotta wonder.. Why is it never me?? Why an I not good enough?? What can I change?? Why not me??

Excuse me while I wipe away the tears

A financial post column on financial advice had me sobbing about the dilemma of a couple approaching retirement who are struggling to make ends meet on measly take home pay of $9500 a month. Included in their monthly budget was an item under "gift giving " of $1650 ... per month , every month. Go and get fucked... with stupid stories like this we don't need any fake news

Look into the elevator before entering

It never ceases to amaze me when adults enter an elevator with their heads downs without looking to see if anybody is in the car. This should be a basic life skill you learn when you're a small child.

No one cares

I've only dealt with adversity, chronic mental and physical illnesses and one bad thing after the other. I'm just so freaking tired of it. I would give anything to be healthy and happy. My health has stolen everything from me..... It isn't fair. It's invisible, so people understand even less, and only certain people know about my depression and ptsd due to the stigma, and how badly I've been treated by family and even health professionals that my own psychiatrist said to refrain from disclosing because I am not believed when I've talked about my physical issues. Landed in hospital 3 bloody times, nearly died once. Fuck you doctors, hospitals, and every close-minded asshole that has screwed me and made my health worse. Fuck you to the so called people that say they are there for you. No one cares! I was in hospital after a test just recently, had a rare complication and in severe pain. Not believed, went to ER next day, internal bleeding. Seriously?!?!? Why won't you assholes believe me, and the complication was due to the doctor s error. I hate hospitals and doctors because of how I've been treated and you bloody doctors are doing a pretty good job of fucking me over even more and adding on top of my crappy health problems. I've tried everything and advocating for myself, I'm done. Not a single friend saw me. I've stupidly bent over backwards for people when they needed me in spite of anything I'm going through because I care For years. I'm so angry and hurt and not sure how to even talk to them. A couple apologized, and one has been texting though moreso out of guilt.... I just want to pull away from them all. I need to learn to be a bitch, and not sure how to. They all have things I can only dream of. Healthy, happy, and healthy enough to work ft to be independent, great partners, and lives. The harder I fight, the more my body and mind fight back, and I have something go wrong. Since I was a child..... What is the point of living if you only experience misery, sickness, and pain? I fight through pain to work pt, seeing countless specialists, a counselor for years. Nothing is helping. Something always goes wrong. I honestly feel cursed. I'm not getting any younger and the loneliness is painful. The hardest part is not being held, it's such a small thing but hurts. I will NEVER do anything casual, and sick of the creeps that pester me for that. NEVER going to happen!!! Rather be alone, and have gone without for years. Just accepted I'll have to be alone, despite it being very difficult. Have way too much I'm dealing with, and my stupid health takes precedence..... As always I needed to vent and just scream it out into the universe. No one is truly here for you. It's easier to be with people in good times than be there for someone that is constantly suffering. Ive been so stupid to think I've ever mattered to anyone. Some people will only suffer, and know of suffering and it's a shame that me and others like me get so beaten down by life, that they no longer have hope.

Tough guys in a group

Last night two guys walking down the sidewalk, one calls me a faggot the other says he's or moving out of my way.... Today I see both guys alone, no lip at all when they're not in a group. You two cowards should read "The Art Of War" but neither of you neadeethals know how to read. One day soon I'll give both of you the chance to be tough guys, one on one. I'll laugh at you cowards as you run away like little girls. Lily little but he's are going to get bitch slapped.

Your nudes

Once in a while, I'll scroll through your nudes in my phone but I can't bring myself to delete them. I can miss someone I don't want back, and still appreciate their nudes right?

Too Many Taxes

I own 3 houses in Vancouver and the government expects me to pay another six thousand dollars a year in taxes because of the value of the properties exceeding a predetermined threshold. This is absolutely unacceptable. Its just another example of robbing from the rich and giving to the poor. Money will probably go to vending machines for illegal drugs or more naloxone for drug addicts who can't stop overdosing. I can well afford to pay this tax but I am fundamentally against the message its sending. You shouldn't punish hard working people for being successful. I worked extremely hard for this wealth and its wrong to punish me for being successful.

Another Day In The Neighbourhood

I'm going down to start a protest out front of the Vegexpo. Those vegans are so judgemental. Who's going to join me?

HMV >Victoria's Secret

Everytime I see the Victoria's secret store off of Robson, I take it as such a huge eyesore. I really miss the HMV, and the act of going to a media store, viewing the product in my hand, and purchasing from a clerk who will shoot the breeze with you about obscure music factoids or whatever else. There was a community vibe. Now, it's a distribution center for strips of cloth that barely cover female (mostly) genitalia. Huge contrast! Maybe it's the contrast that bugs me the most: from something that brings me joy, to something that...err...yah. I would be more appeased if they had not turned it into a vs, but maybe a pub/brewing company. But I get it. Supply and demand and the nature of economics. A sad reminder that the world keeps on moving despite my mind wanting to hold onto things.

Lying to yourself

But then again you're really good at that, aren't you? You feel safe and happy surrounded by other losers with no future, because at the moment they're all still relatively young and attractive and fun. Ten years from now I'm sure you'll feel differently - when you're all aging with health problems, still stuck in the same meaningless, unfulfilling, dead-end jobs that you hate, with debt and no savings and no future, working late nights and drinking at the same bars afterwards. You're pathetic and I'm glad I don't know you anymore.


South Surrey Home Depot

We were both inquiring about the same decking material with the same sales associate. ...