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Death by Swan Boat

One time my now wife and I rented one of those recreational peddle-powered swan boats at a lake. We were somewhere in SE Asia (I'd have to dig through my photos to remember where). By the time we reached the middle of the lake we realized the boat was slowly taking on water. Soon after fish started jumping around the boat. Since we seemed to be sinking we immediately imagined they were probably piranha and we peddled as fast as we could. The faster we peddled the faster the fish flew all around us. My wife was screaming in terror as fish shot past our faces. Anyway, funny in retrospect. They probably weren't *actually* piranha.

Dwindling friendship

I used to have this super funny, creative and open minded friend. Over the years I lost her to the world of corporate finance, 9-5 life and frightening money obsession. I’ve seen it coming for years but recently realised she’s so far gone in that world and our personalities & values are completely different. I don’t want to hang out with her anymore, because every conversation is about money! I’ve told her so many times that I value a simple life but she can’t leave it alone and is always bringing up $$$. So sad. Does anyone have a friendship like this ?? How do you deal?? I don’t want to lose her as a friend but I also can’t deal with constant talks of finance.

Wondering where he is now

Several years ago I was in a pub, waiting for the ferry, on the way to visit my sick dad. A guy and his friend sat beside me and started chatting with me. I wasn't receptive because I was bone tired and he turned to his friend and said "damn, shot down again." My response was "I have no energy and my dad is dying. Why do you have to take me not wanting to talk to a stranger so personally?" His response was "I'm dying, too." Longer story short he was a young guy with COPD and destroyed his body with substance abuse that eventually he'd left behind him. His friend confirmed this was true. I always wonder what happened to that guy.

Curious

I’m genuinely curious to know what exactly the people screaming about a “Covid conspiracy” believe that conspiracy is? Who stands to gain? Thousands are unemployed and using up government (taxpayer) funds at a dizzying rate. Thousands of businesses are closed and may never reopen. So really, why would anyone deliberately create a false pandemic that’s affecting the entire planet? I’m truly curious about how these people have come to this conclusion.

I have feelings for my friend

I am unable to express how I feel towards my same-sex friend who is currently married. I don't know if I have a crush on her or I actually developed romantic feelings for her, either way, I deeply care about her and do think about her. Even if my friend is single I care too much about our friendship to ever put her in awkward position. Anyways, I respect marriage and I do not cross such boundary. This is a secret that I have and I have no one to disclose it except for here, thank you for reading it.

Would be nice

If my Mom actually showed sincere interest when I go on vacation and said, “Have a great time, you deserve it”. Instead, the only thing she’s interested in is how much the hotel is, How many days, how often we ate out, how much the car rental is. Just tallying up the receipts in her head. Pisses me off. I work full time and have been cooped in a tiny condo for months and it would be nice if she expressed excitement that I’m finally able to get away, rather than judge me on how much I’m spending. I’ve already given her thousands of dollars, delivered food and masks and gas cards, during the lockdown so it’s not like I haven’t helped her financially. Maybe next time I won’t even tell her I’m going away to spare us both the drama.

Poor you

I have a friend who seems to really hate women, don't know if he's part of some men's rights group or what's going on with him. He's always going on about conspiracies of women trying to destroy his and his friend's lives. The weirdest thing is he's upset women don't want to date him. Dude, if you start right out the gate hating someone they're not going to want to spend any time with you. The few relationships he did manage to have have been really unhealthy (Gosh I wonder why?) When he's not going off on his weird rants, he can be funny and okay to hang out with. With covid happening I haven't seen him face to face for months and he's been going down strange rabbit holes on social media since then. Don't know if I do want to see him again when things get better but I also worry about him.

Rota Fortunae

There's a song I'm afraid of that only gets stuck in my head just before something serious is about to go down. I try to ignore it and hope that if I don't accidentally sing it aloud that I can prevent whatever disaster is about to take place. Yet somehow in a moment of distraction, it slips out and then I'm terrified. What's the worse that could happen. The worst possible thing you can imagine. But lately, I don't feel as afraid as I used to. So much is happening every day and maybe it's a good thing, even when I don't know what it is. And now I try not to be afraid and sing freely this strange mix of two songs. Across the Universe and 21 by The Cranberries. Nothing's gonna change my world... Nothing's gonna change my world...Nothing's gonna change my world...Nothing's gonna change my world... Today, today, today, today...

Don't bother job shaming me

Sure, I don't make a lot of money and my current job may not seem like the most glamorous, but before you decide to judge or pity me consider this: I am not being micro-managed all day by some crazy boss and I am not getting constantly bullied and belittled in front of others. I don't have a 2 hour commute to and from work every day, and I am allowed to work from home. I get to avoid the all too common office politics, and am still able to have good relations with positive management and coworkers. I am not in a bad place.

Mortality and life

What would you do if you were faced with a serious surgery? I have struggled with a great deal of adversity since I was a child, with illness (thanks for the terrible genes, abuse etc.) and tried to always operate from a place of kindness and empathy only to be screwed over. My health issues are very complex and resulted in significant pain, loss, grief, and a loss of autonomy despite my trying everything under the sun to no avail and countless specialists. You quickly realize the people that are truly there for you when you're chronically ill and most people don't care.... I've always wondered why some people suffer so much and throughout their lives while terrible people don't.... Far too many good, kind people in the same boat as me that deserve so much better and want so little. Just to be healthy to work, be active, and have normalcy. One thing that's been hard is not being touched. I don't mean sexually, but just held, and feeling safe in someone's arms. I've given up on meeting someone as good men are few and far between, let alone one that would be with someone so sick although you couldn't tell from looking at me. I read this study about how men leave women at a rate seven times higher with a partner with illness yet women stay through thick and thin..... Yet, I still wish I had someone to laugh with, and do regular things with, but it can't happen..... It's been several years now. I had friends try to encourage me to date, but due to sexual abuse and PTSD, I have difficulty trusting men, and have been hurt too much. So, what would you do? I'm in the high risk group and have to stay home usually, and my symptoms while awaiting surgery are very difficult where I'm very fatigued. I don't know what to do... Please be kind I'm struggling with this surgery as is and appreciate advice. Thanks.

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