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I confess that if the confession posting is too long I don't read it.

Suffer in Silence

My ex-girlfriend was physically abusive towards me. She would punch, kick, and slap me when she didn't get her way. I told guys that this was happening and they thought it was funny and that she was feisty. Women I told couldn't believe a man was being abused by a woman. I ended up breaking up with her via text because she pulled a kitchen knife on me and I thought she was going to stab me. There just aren't enough services to help men that are being physically abused by their girlfriends/wives so we have to suffer in silence.

Do you want to go on a picnic with me?

That evening I went to the seawall. I watched people kayak on False Creek, and I watched the beautiful yachts cruise by. I soaked in the evening sun and listen to the crowd walk and jog past - behind me in my periphery. I was glowing and dreaming about having a picnic. It's silly, but I would have leapt for the star if she had thrown it into a fire - and my answer was honest.

Dental Surgery Injuries

Did you know? Hospitals in British Columbia refuse to help you if you're injured a dental surgery.

Understanding Rentals

Some people seem to think that $1600/month for a one bedroom/studio is unreasonable. My family bought a condo for a family member around 2012, and this family member subsequently passed away, so we rent it out. Our operating costs, including mortgage debt, insurance, strata fees, etc. are around $1500/month. The cost to anyone buying a similar apartment today would be well over $2000/month, because it has appreciated significantly since 2012. The cheapest 1 bedroom I can find in the same neighborhood is $400k, which would mean the mortgage would be somewhere over $1500, then strata fees, etc. So you're looking at $2000/month, or thereabouts, for a similar unit, including insurance, strata fees, maintenance, etc. What we have on council are a bunch of well meaning people who seem to have this view of what the world "should be" that is divorced from the mathematical reality. One problem is that they don't teach what money is in school. The value of a loaf of bread, in Canadian Dollars, is not proportional to any intrinsic "a loaf of bread should cost thins," it is proportional to the relative value of other things (the bread-mixing machine, the cost of transporting the loaf, cost of grain, etc.), which are in turn costed relative to other things. This is a very complex system, the likes of which nobody really understands in the sense that they have every variable in mind at once. We're talking hundreds or thousands of variables. But on the front of making money, most of the tradespeople I know do fairly well, but they work jobs that are difficult. Most of them didn't go to University, or, if they did, it wasn't what gave them their job in the trades, though, if htey are University educated, they often have a better understanding of the business side of things. So, if you want to make money, get a trade. Don't go to University. You don't need a 4 year degree in Gender Studies to make money.

Let live.

Let die, and move into good bye. Lost is a very simple equal understanding, fulfilled equality, reaching arms, giving of heart, mind, body and soul. Today this is seen as very silly dangerous weakness, those you act as monk are treated and tested as a chump. Why, do we all hate so equally, and love so not at all unless it be love of money, sex and power. Does that ring true of the trinity of a loving emphatic God thinking on betterment improved travel and enlightenment, no that's right. (Unless you said yes as an sarcastic tone, than enjoy here for ever it's always going to be busy.)They sound like principals of the devil I'd say, what's the devil got to do with it(Tiny Turner should of penned that) nothing except that the devil is not a him/her or being of entity or type at all. It's in the details all right. The details are that there is no one thing, with out understanding of it's opposite(For every action there is an equal and opposite, reaction) so the devilish details are understanding it came to be. Whatever philosophical ideas aside. We are living contrary to a plan it's not ours, it's theirs. We will be held to a standard a measurable result by which we are said to be worthy or of graduation, or repetitive, redundant reincarnation. Move into the light or stay behind and learn to escape the dark. We are losing as an entire group now,this is a possibly very destructive way to an unimaginable out come (Noah) the sickness is investing every single individual. So I can help but wonder how that wrong will be fixed. So maybe it's time to think existentially of our existence. Or we may be eradicated as a whole. I confess that really scares me!


I wish it was a path you were willing to travel, not just look at at times admire it's plentiful fruit baring qualities. Yet at other times, you'll view this road through scolding lens, fill your consciousness in judgment and show your heart an entirely different very ugly perspective. I love you, you are my one and only true heart, but I feel like you take the love I have for another to mean the same as the love I have for you. Yes I love her she and I were close, no it does not translate to in love that has run it's course and finished with an not able to maintain outcome. If you were able to ask her I do not doubt she'd speak the same tone if truthful. We had a special love it was connected, but i Took an axe to it and everything fell apart. Too much bad feelings hurtfully spoken words, filled in a open heart with un-breakable concrete. So now I see the same stupid wall that killed love last time out my windshield approaching fast with the same death, disassociation and end of feeling as before. I'm saddened to my core I was attempting to reach out to someone somewhere anywhere. I can not understand it am unable to quantify the numbers. I have asked total strangers silly desperate questions. Yes I also have gotten pretty good at spotting both sides spies. I love and care if she is ok. She showed me true caring love when everyone else was hoping I'd fall from the ledge to my death. Now I find myself twisted in the same way in a very different situation but I know she is the ONE! I'm dying a little each day, on a very steady road to death, that is my chronic sentence for being a stupid scared child. No excuse when your a man, I growing up I fear with tears it not or hasn't been fast enough. Sweetheart your my heart it's yours for now. You should trust the loyal and unyielding will of this heart to your truth. I have done nothing to show you it's a liar. I remember when I'd be gone awhile how nice it was to return and see you sitting by yourself almost waiting. It was touching there are many reason ilu that's but one of a thousand. I have not been able to speak to this truth because of it's taboo nature. Please understand please don't suffocate my heart to others, it's only truly tied to you, but the inability to trust is untying the bond. Imu every day for some what of a month I think it's be the coldest loneliest of my days

Is it just me? Please say it's not

Maybe this isn't the best place to say this but am I the only person that multiple times a day mutters to their self .. "what's wrong with people?" Why is it business people can't do professional business?


Golden Ears hiking trail

You were starting your hike and I was ending. We locked eyes a few meters away and as we finally...

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