Stop this depressive thinking. To do this, you need to immediately stop making the excuse to not exercise because it takes up more time. Exercise atleast 3 to 4 times a week. I have felt depressed, we have all felt depressed. I am not a gym guru with a 6 pack. I'm an average person and from experience I can tell you that everytime I have felt down and went to exercise it rejuvenates my energy and my mental health. Time for family and friends is on the other 2-3 days.

Exercise will help you mind. Trust me. Do it.

I have no advice at all, just compash. And an observation that your post is, actually, very lucid, insightful - painful in its honesty - not really the work I would expect from a total mess.

If it is ok, I am going to be cautiously optimistic?

I know how you feel as i'm in the same boat, what i've learned so far:

Life is tough, especially out here. You in turn must be tough too, not because you want to or should, but because you have to.

Make some important tough decisions, focus rather than trying to have it all and your life will get better

Hey there... you can't tackle everything at once... most people can't (that's normal). So, adjust actions in small increments. I agree with the previous post... Start with excercise... it will help you mentally to balance out everything else that is out of sorts. Been there done that, never looked back so there's great hope for you too :O) Best of luck!

stop making excuses. no one else is responsible for your happiness BUT YOU. Either you committ to change now, or you keep spinning your wheels in misery.

create an inspiration board. create a plan, write it down, stick to it. never give up. And quit being such a whiner. If its easy its not worth it, start living life on your own terms sweetheart.

Surround yourself with positive reinforcements, like a pinterest board for health,finances, SELF love. Always focus on what you want and work towards it constantly. You will be surprised at what you can acheive when you allow success to be your only option.

People who are happy,healthy,and successful will only surround themselves with those on the same energy frequency. If you want a piece of that you have to BE that.

I am a single mother, high school drop out, former addict in treatment 3x by the time i was 16.

if I can,you can too.

Dont have the skills? GET THEM. You are the architect of your future.

now go.

Some good advice here. I suggest you start small. Go for a walk every evening after dinner. Start small. Maybe 10 minutes. Then build up. Don't worry about spending time with others. You need to love yourself first before someone else will love you. Otherwise it'll just be potty. You can do this. Things will get better. I speak from experience. And BTW lots of us guys do prefer curvy women. :)

Quit your snivelling, pick yourself up and focus on where you want to be in 5 years. Pursue that goal and make it happen. Stop trying to figure out what others are thinking about you and live your own life – this tactic will result in others wanting to know you better. Start getting some exercise and eat better to lose the pounds. Follow this advice and your life will become wonderful!

Alternatively you can start to party! Start drinking lots and taking drugs - you won't believe how friendly everyone gets when wasted. You'll forget about your troubles until the next time. Your weight won't be an issue either because you won't have time to care.

You are SO inspiring!

Bravo!

Thank you for all the positive feedback everyone! And to the people who say "quit your snivelling", or "quit being a whiner"... This is the first time I've ever complained aloud to anyone. I've never whined or cried to anyone about how I feel... And expressing how I feel about my life is the first step to any change I'll make.