Rich and miserable

I'm not looking for sympathy, but as I sit here in the early morning in a foreign city with a beautiful woman, a complete stranger, sleeping next to me... and reading through these confessions like I always do, because it makes me feel more normal to be reading about the sorts of problems normal people are dealing with, I thought I'd share with you all what "money doesn't buy you happiness" is all about. How'd I get here? The long story involves making a lot of money over the last 20 years, and working too hard to ever have a real relationship let alone get married. The short story is I woke up yesterday with nothing to do, packed a bag, took the SkyTrain to the airport with no plan in mind. Wound up booking a flight to San Francisco because it still had seats in business class. While on the plane (yay WiFi) I booked a hotel and, well, let's not call her an escort. Same idea but far more expensive. I spent the day on Alcatraz, trying to wallow in the former inmates misery to make myself feel better. Then I hooked up with the aforementioned grad-student/opportunist who's sleeping next to me, took her to a great restaurant and then back here. I'll wake her up after I post this, we'll have sex again, then she'll be on her merry way and I'll check out and head to the airport to figure out where to go next. Maybe back to Vancouver, where I can at least wallow in familiar surroundings. Or, Las Vegas, that's always a good one. Or, maybe Chicago and catch the hockey game tomorrow. Who cares, whatever, fuck it. I can do anything I want, so I do and then realize I don't even have a fucking clue what I'm chasing. Well, I do... I am chasing happiness. And I know, from many years of trying, that I'll never catch it.

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It's common man...

May 20, 2015 at 9:47am

My uncle is rich and feels the exact same way, he's never happy. Money is nice, but it definitely does not buy happiness... He's old and still miserable.

Well....

May 20, 2015 at 10:06am

You sound lost and adrift, with no purpose.

What about finding a way to give back to others, such as through volunteer work, or perhaps go back to work in something you love?

A life without purpose is no life at all.

All the best.

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Put your money where your mouth is...

May 20, 2015 at 10:24am

...you say your money's not making you happy, so spread the money around... give a little instead of spending on yourself... you will find yourself more content, I assure you.

I'm early 30s and grew up well below the poverty line, but was still taught to be generous with what we did have, so whilst we we didn't have much money to spare, we gave our time and also shared our meals regularly. I have my own family now and my wife and I work hard to make sure we're as comfortable as possible, but we're still living paycheque to paycheque, much like a lot of people... I know a little extra would help us right now as we're trying to buy our first car to make it easier to get to around and more easily share the care of our son (we work full weeks and split our days so that we're not having to pay more than we earn to put him in daycare!)... I'm sure there's a lot of people that would benefit from your generosity, so maybe try that? I think it will surprise you that giving to others and making a difference in their lives can help make you content.

It's called capitalism

May 20, 2015 at 10:25am

And you don't feel better until you try to figure it out and dismantle it. That emptiness you feel has been the sweet spot of the philosophers for thousands of years. This lament could have been inscribed on a tablet in Rome. If this system you have "mastered" makes you sick and empty, there is something wrong with it. Try reading Emma Goldman's autobiography or something similar.

Shibby

May 20, 2015 at 10:30am

Another reason why school should be free for everyone.
So girls don't need to pimp themselves out just to get by.

And if she sleeps with you to pay her bills for school; how likely is it she would do the same with a professor or other person in power to reach her goals?

And women complain about inequality?

But seriously, don't blame her. This is one of the micro-costs of living in such an expensive world. People do desperate things in desperate times.

boo hoo

May 20, 2015 at 10:53am

I'd love to change problems with you. let's meet and you can give me your money and I will hand over my ex wife and 3 kids. Get your head out of your ass and start doing something useful with your life. Volunteer, go to school, give back to the community, the list goes on and on.

Old Nettie

May 20, 2015 at 11:52am

Opportunist....haha

skeptic

May 20, 2015 at 1:19pm

hang on a sec... you're filthy rich, yet you took the skytrain to the airport? what gives man? couldn't you hop in a cab or rent a limo or something?

pungyo

May 20, 2015 at 1:52pm

Sometimes when we cant make our selves feel better....
Its time to try making others feel better, small acts of kindness & generosity without reciprocity or recognition.
Go buy food & hand it out to the hungry, sponsor a sports team or a school. Create the opportunity for benevolent example without taking credit. There's many things wealth can do other than fill the hollows it creates. Be batman & save your soul while saving the less fortunate.

"Kindness is a language the deaf can hear & the blind can see."
-Mark twain

souless

May 20, 2015 at 2:54pm

Why are you only taking trips to soulless destinations? Get out of the material, it's consuming you. Volunteer for a week to see what a meaningful existence feels like. No sense in having money if you're gonna live like a chump.

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