I am confessing that for the last few months of my relationship I have been a horrible, mean, negative and controlling bitch. Looking back at some of the mean things that I've said in the heat of the moment makes me so, so sad. My boyfriend has been nothing but overly wonderful to me and would only ever do whatever I needed to be happy and I need to apologize for my intolerable behaviour. My heart breaks because of how I've treated him. He has never done ANYTHING to deserve the harsh things I've done or mean things I've said. I've been a huge child. Sure, people do things that you don't always agree with, or make mistakes once in awhile but nothing, no matter what, deserves being treated like a piece of shit. If I ever lost him, if something bad ever happened, my world would crash around me and I'd probably die from a broken, wounded heart. I need to treat people like they are precious. I need to remember that not everyone will always be there. People weren't put here to be there for you while you take it for granted. I am so sorry. He deserves someone better, a better version of me.