You can love someone but still leave them. It’s nice to think that love solves everything, but that’s only true if both people are mature enough for the reality of an adult relationship. There’s a part of me that will always love them, but I finally learned to love myself enough to realize that I deserve more than crumbs.

I can't comprehend the pain and discomfort I must have caused you by being so self-absorbed. I understand and accept that forgiveness will never be on the table. I will do my best to ensure you are not haunted by memories my presence may induce. I have long admired your strength and realize I need to take a page from that book. I am truly sorry that what I did hurt you so much that it severed the friendship we had. I wish you well.

It makes me mad that I am going to be royally screwed, unable to afford a house, friends dying of drug overdoses, and being unable to afford a retirement, while our precious Trudeau is pampered and licked by society.

I thought I had it but I went to the doctor and got an ultrasound and I don't! It's a huge relief and I have nobody to tell because I wouldn't let anybody in on my secret. I DON'T HAVE NUT CANCER! P.S. If you're scared of going to the doctor, don't be like me. I put it off for far too long and if it actually WAS cancer I'd be screwed. My worst fear was that the ultrasound tech would be an attractive woman around my age and she was exactly that. But she was a pro.

I had ALWAYS believed in the our love. I thought there was NOTHING more powerful in this Universe.

So it's well after midnight on an East Van bus. Two kids, both in army jackets, one asleep, the other staring. The mother, young and beautiful with hoop earrings, staring into space. In eight stops I witnessed, she did not look at her kids once. Zero attention. I've been around parents and children so long to know this was not normal, and it wasn't drugs: it was something situational. I'll always wonder: what was going on in that family to make the mother so distanced that she paid no attention whatsoever to her children for so long.

When you realize that consumerism and power driven through capitalism runs the world and people are powerless to fight the desire to consume. I wish someone could come save us from them... except communisms. Those are even worse because you get nothing from trying... and not being able to try in life is meaningless. We need something in between.

I wish I knew what to say to you. There’s a frog in my throat and the words won’t come out. I feel you’ll reject me either way, say ‘good for you but you’re not for me’. I wish I was for someone that I wished for like you. But it’s all wasted pennies in the bottom of a park fountain. Shiny worthless possibilities conducting the electricity I feel with you. But you’ll invest in someone with more worth, greater drive and mind.

And she was looking at me with desire. She knows im crazy about her. Maybe now she'll act? She has my number, and knows she can contact me at 5 am and ill be there in 20, showered and eager.

No it’s not. It’s lived experience. Hopefully you gain wisdom from that experience. Now that I can confidently say that I’m old, I look back at my younger self and laugh. How arrogantly sure of myself and my level of knowledge I was! How I assumed that more years meant nothing. How incredibly wrong I was about so many things that only experience would teach. Young people don’t change much from generation to generation. They think they invented it all and old people are irrelevant. As if all of us old people were born old. So now I know what not to say and how to pick my battles. I know how to let some things and some people go without me struggling to keep them. I have learned that “this too shall pass” is the absolute truth. I accept that how I look now is going to look pretty good to me ten years from now if I’m lucky enough to be around then and able to look back. I’m not going to waste my time telling young people to listen to their elders because the young people who most need to listen are the ones least likely to do so. I’m going to live out the rest of my life appreciating the gifts I’ve been given and being grateful for the things I have, and not worrying so much about what I don’t have. Peace.