So I win biggest loser of the year award so I was talking to a female for months we talked daily we talked about everything I thought we had a connection. My heart believed we had we never connected for one reason or another in hind sight I should have known better but I wanted it so badly I wasn’t thinking properly you would think someone in there 50s would know better. So we planned to meet Christmas Day and know one showed up or called I gave it until new year’s still no response email and numbers all no response so at least I didn’t get taken for money etc,, I’m glad my daughter was around on Christmas to take mind off it otherwise would have been in bad place. I hope 2023 is better it will take a while to open heart again to someone new weird how life throws us curve balls I hope to find new love again love to all.

I think Timothy Leary destroyed so many people by touting LSD back in the 1960s. It’s a dangerous drug that’s devastating to mental health. It’s a shame how many hippies were gullible to buy into his nonsense and died from overdosing. He was an idiot.

It's always the same. I don't speak it out loud. I don't even silently think the words in my head but the same thoughts are always there. I'm sitting across from someone, but it won't ever happen again in real life , and a decade ago when it did it never went the way I hoped anyway.

Internet 12 hours a day ...tv 7 hours a day.....twitter & tik Tok most of the time....on my iPhone all the time looking for likes & stupid shit...watched porn too as I ate my Christmas dinner at my house..... pretty pathetic.....but hey....at least I wear deodorant every day.

I often thought Pan refused to grow up and was obsessed with death. Then I learned what medicine constituted in his time. Alcohol and morphine. Tonics to lull children into submission and slumber. What happens to children who are neglected and learn not to express their needs? Nothing good. Isn't medication better now though? Every drug has its all healing heyday in culture. Medicine could also mean bitter truths to take in. What did Pan need to process in order to heal?

When my daughter was born in 2000 I so wished for her to be a strong intelligent young woman, like Greta Thurnberg. Instead I got this; "Dad,you know that show "Pretty Little Liars"?" "No" "Well that's what mom and me are." "Mom and I" "What?"

Kinda hypocritical all the people in government against guaranteed income getting paid it. Pathetic reasoning, securing their lofty lifestyle at low incomes expense. Maybe its time to bring back that musical chairs game, to the tune of Talking Heads, watch them go around in circles for a change, fight for scraps, the way the majority do, taking away the last left chairs until none's left. Resolutions.

I’ve been a member of a social club for12 years and it is feeling really stale. They don’t invest in the future. With a new year, I think, can I endure the same boredom, mismanagement and egos for an other yrar? Time to leave for a change of scenery.

I had a dream last night, a nightmare really ! In my dream no one would rent me an apartment and no one would even help me find one, people were being mean and uncaring and shifty. In my dream I couldn't understand why I was being left to the wayside and overlooked. Then I woke up and realized it wasn't a dream at all.

Remember that once again we lived through history this year. Looking back, our lives have been filled with change, intrigue, and adventurous uncertainties. I’ll take it as a win and will drink a cup of kindness for auld lang syne. Cheers to us.