Considering now that my once absolute companion now won't even speak to or look at me, I've decided to extend my contract abroad by another year or two because either way, the stability and opportunities are a good thing and something I've searched long for to find. I want her so damn much but I've gotten the message that she doesn't value me or my needs either and thus she probably doesn't love me as strongly as I thought and hoped so much. Unless there is a way we can share our lives without sacrificing our careers, which we've both worked so hard for, I'm totally at a loss for a solution. I now have to give my employees my green light, with guilt.