dated the same person.

Mind and soul destroyia. Do not fear solitude. It can help cleanse you of the toxicity of people and pets. Ask yourself if after all these serial relationships life is any better. How much time have you ever spent alone and independent? Strength comes from within

I think "Loss. Love" might be them, after reading that.

Shut up, Yoda.

This happened to me, and it was very confusing and painful. I have OCD so I've had plenty of time to reflect on it, daily (at times much more frequently) for about 8 years. Definitely not healthy to give something like that so much thought, but my opinion has changed about it over time. Now, I can't say that it was so personal. It's not like I was the target of some huge master plan of evil. They simply liked trying to get me to fall for them (but not dealing with it when I did) and didn't care about how much it would hurt me.

Loss, Love is a fake post though. Just because someone writes it doesn't make it true. You can't hold someone accountable for something written on an anonymous forum. Real life people.

Our experiences make us who we are, but they don't have to define us. I can understand your trust issues, I have let myself be use and taken advantage of a few times over the years and it does make you jaded. Every moment spent worrying about what could happen, stops you from experiencing what will happen. Too much time alone can be a very bad thing, humans need communities and personal interactions. You don't need to go from alone to a soulmate in one step. Look for volunteer group where you can go and help out, elections are coming up join a political campaign, it important to just be around people and find positive things to experience. You don't simply want someone to talk to you, you want someone to talk with you.

Sorry you are hurting. Going through a loss as well myself. Keep going. One step at a time. You will get there. It is never wrong to love someone. Be proud that you had the courage to try. Many never experience love or take the risk. You will love again. It will be different. If this person played games, you will see the signs. Do not compromise. There are great people out there. When you are ready keep looking till you find one. You never know what is around the corner. :)

Thanks for this xoxo

Look up the signs of a narcissist. It might help explain what happened to you. It makes for a very different and painful breakup. You will recover. Be stronger and be ready for the great love of your life. Be proud that you took a risk to love someone. I lost a friend at age 40. His biggest regret is he had never been in love with someone.