I'm embarrassed by my unattractive vagina

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      I have been insecure about the way my vagina looks for as long as I can remember. When I was young, I would fantasize about the day I would grow pubic hair long enough to cover its unsightliness. That day never came, and I was left with an enormous insecurity about it. My labia minora is oversize quite a bit. I know that this is not uncommon, but its unattractiveness holds me back from receiving oral sex. I don’t even let my long-term boyfriend go down on me because I’m afraid he’ll think it’s gross and ugly. He assures me that he doesn’t care about the way it looks, but I can’t bring myself to let him do it. Any advice that might help dispel a lifetime of genital embarrassment?

      > Minora Is Majora

      “I study vulvas and vaginas, and what people think of vulvas and vaginas, so of course I want MIM to love hers,” said Debby Herbenick, a sex research scientist at Indiana University and a sexual-health educator at the Kinsey Institute. Herbenick coauthored Read My Lips: A Complete Guide to the Vagina and Vulva, and along with coauthor Vanessa Schick, she researched what people like or dislike about vulvas and vaginas. What they learned should come as a comfort to you, MIM.

      “Just as many people in our study talked about loving long labia as talked about loving smaller labia,” said Herbenick. “So long labia are not universally regarded as ‘unsightly’. In some cultures, women start pulling their labia from an early age to make their labia minora longer.”

      I would suggest that you get your hands on a copy of Read My Lips, MIM. Herbenick also recommends Femalia and I’ll Show You Mine, two other books that celebrate the broad diversity of vulvas. “The Vagina Monologues is another must-read,” said Herbenick, “especially the monologue about Bob. It’s about one woman who, through positive sexual experiences with a vulva-loving partner, comes to appreciate her vulva.”

      Which brings us to your partner, MIM. He’s into you and would like to go down on you. If you’re quoting him accurately—if he’s telling you that he doesn’t care how your vulva looks—then he’s doing “assurance” all wrong. He’s saying, “I am willing to go down on you despite the unattractiveness of your vulva,” when he needs to be saying, “Your vulva is beautiful, and I want to go down on you.” Show him this column, MIM, and after he apologizes for screwing up the assurance thing, let him go down on you already.
      “What would it cost MIM to allow her boyfriend to try to give her oral sex, even if just for 30 seconds?” asks Herbenick. “If she thinks she would enjoy the sensations and pleasures of oral sex, if not for her genital embarrassment, why not have a glass of wine or a beer, and kick back and see if she can enjoy it even briefly?” Or why not pot, MIM? Speaking from personal experience: pot works wonders for some people with body issues. (Individual results may vary.)

      “MIM could do it in the dark if she wants. She should breathe deeply and play music she likes,” said Herbenick. “Make it less about sex and more about exploration. She might find that she can get over her insecurities. Really! And wouldn’t that be cool and possibly, quite literally, life-changing?

      “There are also events MIM could attend, like Betty Dodson’s bodysex workshops in New York (expensive but empowering) that are all about helping women enjoy their vulvas and their sexuality. For a stay-at-home version, MIM could watch Dodson’s video ‘Viva la Vulva’ by herself or with her boyfriend.”

      So let’s say you’ve read the books and watched the videos and attended the seminars and smoked the pot and allowed the boyfriend—also high, perhaps blindfolded—to go down on you, and you feel no differently about your vulva. What then?

      “If nothing helps MIM see her long labia for the national treasure they are, then yes, there’s surgery,” said Herbenick. “And while marketing for labiaplasty has mostly been a thing for the past 10 to 15 years, doctors have been doing these surgeries for ages. A few tips for MIM if she decides to go this route: her insurance may not cover it and, yes, it can be painful (it’s surgery), and it will take several weeks to heal before she can have sex or even sit comfortably again. A challenge with vulva surgeries, of course, is a possible risk of loss of or change to sensation, and there is very little research on the long-term outcomes of these surgeries, in spite of the claims on many surgeons’ websites.”

      Herbenick suggests that if you opt for surgery, you look for a surgeon who has done many labiaplasties. “I’m not a fan of the way some doctors market their surgeries, but yes, some women feel better about their genitals after getting the labia they want,” said Herbenick. “MIM should review before and after photos first so she can see what kind of labia she’s likely to have afterward. Many surgeons have a certain ‘style’ that they tend to do over and over again.”

      But please, MIM, Herbenick and I both want you to give books and videos and seminars a chance first. “If MIM is open to receiving vulva-loving propaganda from me, I will gladly send her a care package of books, postcards, and other fun things in hopes that she might learn to love her labia,” said Herbenick. “But I’d also be among the first to send her a congratulatory card on her new labia if she decides surgery is the right option for her. After all, I’m a vulva supporter whether that person’s vulva is the one they were born with or the one they had made for themselves sometime later in life.” Follow Herbenick on Twitter @DebbyHerbenick.

      I am a 24-year-old woman who loves everything butt—except butthole. Anal penetration and anilingus are hard limits for me, but the most sensitive erogenous zones on my body are my cheeks, crack, and coin slot. But I can’t figure out a clear way to communicate this. Terms like “ass play” generally mean asshole play. I can’t be the only person who feels this way. Help a girl get her ass worked (but not fucked), and give me a term!

      > Nuts For Butts

      Some sexual interests and/or limits are too complicated to be expressed with a simple term, NFB. So you’ll have to use your words: “I love having my butt played with—cheeks, crack, coin slot—but my butthole is off-limits. Get on my ass, not in it.”

      This girl just hit a bump with her boyfriend. I offered to do something he secretly wanted to try, and he said, “Urinate on me.” I get the fantasy—surrender, being marked, the naughtiness. However, I can’t imagine liking it and I do not want to build it into our repertoire. Set aside that I have no idea how to do it so it’s sexy, safe, and sanitary. Is it okay to negotiate “one-and-done” and put it on my “No” list afterward?

      > Wet And Wild

      You can certainly negotiate a “one-and-done” agreement, WAW, but if you find the idea of pissing on your boyfriend upsetting—if the thought doesn’t just leave you cold but actually revolts and/or traumatizes you—then you don’t have to go through with it. (You’re not trapped in some piss-fetish version of The Merchant of Venice, WAW. You don’t need a Portia to rescue you from this verbal contract.) As for sexy, safe, and sanitary: you don’t have to find it sexy, he’s not going to drown, droppeth your gentle rain upon him in the tub.




      Dec 3, 2014 at 12:15pm

      I feel SO Bad for MIM as I read what she is saying. She needs to know that ALL female genitalia looks Absolutely Lovely. Last GF I had, unfortunately she could never get over the age difference even though she gave it several months, had quite long Inner Labia. Much longer than any I have had the pleasure of pleasuring and they were beautiful. She told me I was the first to give her an orgasm with oral. NO Female Vulva or Labia Is Unattractive.


      Dec 4, 2014 at 10:50am

      I happen to be one of, more than you think, those guys that prefers the roast beef sandwich. Way more sensual. however, neurosis over what is a rather benign body part you have no control over is petty and a turnoff.

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