Quiet sad

When I cry now, alone, I no longer ask him to come back. I don't tell people how much I miss him. I don't tell my therapist that I carry him around as I move through life. But I'm still so sad, eleven months after he broke us. I'll never understand. I'll never forgive him. I don't know how to let go of him. He gave up on me and I don't know how to move on.

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Dec 10, 2018 at 4:42pm

new one to obsess over.

It will get better

Dec 10, 2018 at 4:50pm

Sorry you are sad. It is the hardest thing to lose someone you love. Not sure if you experienced any abuse or a sudden discard, it can make things seem insane and hard to process. It is different than a regular break up. Do some research, it helped me get past where you are.

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Owweoo

Dec 10, 2018 at 5:56pm

Don't worry. You're better than him.

Been there

Dec 10, 2018 at 10:25pm

I have found that someone ghosting you can be very damaging and hurtful and it’s not like other breakups.It is also all about them and their issues. If you are fortunate to have some good friends go see them, get out and do stuff you like. It will fade. Good luck to you

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One foot in front of the other

Dec 10, 2018 at 10:44pm

I've been there too (and might still be there some days). Being the one that wants to keep trying when the other person doesn't can cut deep. Getting over him isn't so much about healing the wound as it as about outgrowing the person you were when you were together. Right now, you're still the you that was part of an "us." Later, you'll have grown into someone stronger and wiser, who doesn't need or want him anymore. He won't always matter. It can take a long time to get there, and all you can do in the meantime is keep living for yourself. Enjoy the little things, tell the people who've stuck by you that you love them. You'll get there! Best of luck.

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I'm in the same boat

Dec 11, 2018 at 1:16am

But it happened a couple weeks ago. I'm not going to ask (or beg) him back because he ended it, so it's gunna stay ended. That pain that's there, can fuck off...I don't want or need it.

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I feel you

Dec 11, 2018 at 8:31pm

I am a guy and I know exactly how you feel. My wish of the season for you is that you don’t become like me. 5 years and counting. I begged her to not give up on me and she did so anyway. I hope you find peace.

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jackb

Dec 12, 2018 at 10:56pm

I really feel for you..... the hopes and dreams you had are unfortunately not realized..... but please don't let this person ,who isn't even in your life,( by their choice) ... continue to hold power over you....... go and create an outstanding life for yourself ............ despite them not being in it..... you deserve that!

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