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Someone who used to be a close friend gradually (over a period of years) cut me out of their life with no explanation. I know they're not doing well now and I know that's been the case for some time, although really, there's a lot I don't know given that they stopped answering my texts a long time ago (eventually I just stopped trying), and at some point, removed me from their social media. The weird part is that they still have people they only know through me as facebook friends... Some of these people will mention them to me, as if I should know what's going on in their life, but they've cut me off, so I know less than these other people do. Apparently they're now getting to be in a fairly desperate place financially, but I... don't really feel bad for them? And that makes me feel guilty. I think where they're at now is the result of a number of bad decisions they made... but then I feel guilty for being judgmental. Maybe it's mostly coming from a place of hurt, or maybe it's that there's just not much point in feeling sorry for people who want to be rescued and don't want to do anything to help themselves.

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Empathy

Oct 21, 2019 at 7:17am

I like your confession. You are struggling keeping your empathy for others when you want to just say "F it".
Empathy is toughest when it would be easier to let it go. You don't have to rescue anyone. But you also have the freedom to not worry about others stresses. You never know where life goes. Keep the empathy. :)

Nice Tale of lies

Oct 21, 2019 at 1:47pm

But your leaving out the part where you were a lieing deceitful friend who does horrible things.. Just to make your shitty self feel better.
Sad Lies.
Like You.
Stop drinking and maybe you wont say and do mean hurtful things.
My Friend

OP Re: Nice Tale of lies

Oct 22, 2019 at 10:05pm

Sad case of projection?

I'm flawed, but not deceitful. I'm not sure what horrible things I did, not to this person, anyway. I'm not that much of a drinker either.

Anonymous

Oct 24, 2019 at 9:58am

Perhaps they were sick of your judgemental attitude? Who needs people like you in their lives - especially when you seem to have a penchant for kicking people when they're down.

btw, perhaps you ought to consider the difference between "bad decisions" and "wrong decisions/bad calls":

A bad decision is something like getting addicted to drugs, cheating on your partner, stealing from your employer, gambling the rent money, etc.

A wrong decision is relocating for a job with a company that goes bust in an economic downturn, stranding you with a mortgage in an area with few job prospects and a moribund property market. It's putting a lot of time, money and effort into training for a career in a field that turns out to be a lot less marketable by the time you've qualified than when you started.

Decisions like that, made on the basis of sound logic and in good faith, can still land you in a desperate spot financially. But I would hardly characterise them as "bad": the only thing bad in that context is one's luck.

But perhaps you lack the generosity of spirit to see that; or you are so invested in having people on whom you can justify looking down and denigrating, that to display any empathy risks damaging your fragile, narcissistic ego.

And yes, both of the above scenarios have happened in my life, and I came very close to becoming homeless at one point - in fact, I most likely would have, had it not been for the help of some very good friends whose assistance was invaluable in eventually extricating myself from a progressive downward spiral.

I've cut nasty creatures like you out of my life in the past. The last thing anyone needs when they're struggling with misfortune is someone who not only won't be supportive, but will add insult to injury.

Hey op no drinking?

Oct 25, 2019 at 6:46am

Might you have other issues, I don't know maybe cough medicine over use. Or something less gross and acohol like? I'm wondering if your a friend of mine?

Re: anonymous

Oct 28, 2019 at 9:02pm

Thanks for the insults and incorrect assumptions? I meant bad decisions, not wrong decisions.

Oh my

Nov 3, 2019 at 10:08am

Whereas you're bloody perfect and not at all touchy.

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