But I'm scared. A constant low grade background hum type of feeling. I think I understand what anxiety disorder means now, y'all are like this all the time! Someday there will be a cure. And if we are very lucky, the virus attenuates or otherwise ceases to be an issue. But in the meantime... I will say that there is an unexpected upside. It is living in a heightened awareness of things. Going about my life, with other people going about their lives. Every triumph and failure put into perspective. Musing on what I've done, what I needed to learn, what I hope to do. It's clarifying.