1. Have a lot of stuff.
2. Love money and give lovin to a person with money for money.
3. Live off them so you can be lazy if you want and never worry about money.
4. Feel bored and unfulfilled over your superficial, shallow, and empty existence.

Aside from your heart and soul, you can't be missing all that much for your life to be a little more perfect.

You chose money over love and now you're feeling upset over being a prostitute for your stand in spouse?

Money and looks are superficial. they mean nothing. they mean less than nothing. it's a reason lust is a sin. People confuse lust with porn, or cheating or things like that, but really lust means you don't really love someone. you lust for them in ways that are not love.

It seems that you’re learning that money really can’t buy anything other than stuff. Sure, it can buy you choices, freedom, and luxuries, but it can’t buy you love. And, in my humble opinion, love matters more than all the rest.

Actually he sound like me might turn out to be gay.

Just remember that after pulling the rug out from under something good, every new iteration of your life afterwards would have it's own troubles. Sounds like you need a dose of hardship to generate some appreciation. That always works.

at some high end stores and buy lots of expensive shit that will take your pain away. Poor baby.

the chemistry with the other person was off the charts?
Or you had more in-common?
And/Or because the other person has been trying to get in contact with you?
Or maybe a combination or all of the above?

loving them. My guess is because your heart is still somewhere else . Attraction has to be a big part of marriage.

You sound like a trophy wife which would mean that they only love you in a possessive manner. They're probably cheating on you already.