while we were all excited for a hot vaxx summer after isolation, i think the onslaught of socializing found us weary fast. we're all ready for hibernation now. i certainly am. i keep finding myself socializing, my best friend is visiting from edmonton, my coworkers i hadn't caught up with in some time want to party this weekend, it doesn't seem to end. but september will come and just like that, it will. peace. ahhh.

This husk has been sucked dry

A friend insists on trying to get me the videochat late at night when they are high, I don't think they get that I live in a different province.

My heart cries wishing to be able to throw all the devices into the garbage and go 'Back To The Garden' and live in a little village were we were all family communicating face to face in person .... 100% the opposite of FakeBook !!!!

... is why letter writing is a good habit. You get a connection, but it's not instantaneous.

your friend senses your depression and is trying to keep in contact/keep your spirits up and give You attention (& make sure you haven't killed yourself).
Sad that you just see them as being an attention whore.

If that person is being a nuisance, I’d tell them straight up to please STOP messaging me and get a life. Sometimes more often than not, you have to put your foot down and take control of your life. You can only live your life for you. Nobody else.

He said. And I said " how do I get out?"

Have you tried with being honest? I let my friends know when I'm not feeling particularly responsive to texts.

I tried doing short curt answers. I then tried ignoring the messages which just led to more messages piling up. Their need for a dopamine hit from me is huge. So I just went direct and said I’m taking a phone break for a while. They are seeing a therapist so I didn’t want to be mean or cruel to them. We’re all kinda effed up these days. I am glad I just went direct; I feel a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.