I hope I get coronavirus

posted March 9th, 2020 at 5:17 PM

Before you all tell me to go seek help and life is worth living and all of that... I'm not suicidal. I'm not about to jump off the Burrard bridge. But as many older people whose best years are behind them, at some point you have to face your mortality and the path towards the inevitable. I've lived a fantastic life with a lifetime of wonderful memories. Two kids with whom I'm close, both happily married and financially independent. And as I approach the twilight in my life, seeing what's changed in the world... as I type this, I'm looking down at a courtyard full of young people, all wandering around like zombies, staring into their phones. I'm reading about our politicians, both here and South of the border, and the incomprehensibly awful way they manage their affairs. I'm sure the world will be ok eventually. This virus will get a vaccine, better leaders will be elected, and people will realize that what's all around them is a better interaction that their little phone. But I'd have to live to 120 to see that, and I won't. I guess I'm tired. And going out with the virus gets my estate divied up sooner, get my life insurance cashed in, and the benefits of all of that gets used today by people who need it more than me. And I get to end a life where the negatives of aging and the world around me are only getting more pronounced on a daily basis.

15 Comments

Jeez,

Mar 9, 2020 at 9:29pm

Cheer me up why dontcha!

Nate777

Mar 9, 2020 at 10:10pm

I’d rather have my mom around than a bank account with a lot more cash.

Anonymous

Mar 9, 2020 at 11:03pm

You said it all far better than I could.

The thing that gets me most is that all my great memories of the past get a day further away each morning that I wake up. Each night I go to sleep I hope that I die in my sleep. Like you, I’m not suicidal, I just feel like I’m finished and that I won the game as much as anyone really can.

I wish death with dignity was an option for people in my situation.

I hope I get....

Mar 9, 2020 at 11:19pm

cabsauv virus. Nvr.....I'm already infected.

Anonymous

Mar 10, 2020 at 1:11am

Too bad both of my parents didn't kill themselves lol

@ nate777

Mar 10, 2020 at 8:26am

You hit the " dam" nail on the head with that one " Nate ".
Truly
They forgive you.
Money is the root of all evil.
But everyone needs $5 bucks in their pocket.
"Lap Dances"
Bahaha

Facts

Mar 10, 2020 at 9:19am

I think people should privately and peacefully have a choice after a certain age if they WANT to continue on or not. Without any social stigma that they gave-up this or that ESP in suffering. It would provide loved one's a peaceful mourning situation rather then gone to soon, didn't say goodbye etc.

If it's someone's desire or time it should be a given right to decide when just as we decide how we live. I don't see any problem with that at all. Why should we rot away in some facility or have a terrible "chance accident" of some kind? Not nice! This is something society needs to change.

Giving Up

Mar 10, 2020 at 9:21am

This is what everyone sounds like these days, like they've given up. Time to go I don't like it here anymore. Nothing will take us all down faster than not having hope. The "human spirit" has overcome mind boggling adversity over millennia, now here, the most comfortable populations to have ever existed just want to die.
Nate 777 called it.

OP

Mar 10, 2020 at 11:49am

Just to address a couple of comments above... from Nate and Giving Up... this is not about giving up. On the contrary, it's about taking the win. It's about retiring just after you won the Stanley Cup.

In fact, that's a good comparison. Imagine NHL players were forced to keep playing till the day they die. A bunch of geriatrics in pain, floating around the ice is misery. To what end?

Who is talking about giving up? As someone above said, they won. They grabbed life and squeezed as much out of it as they can. The ridiculous stigma society holds, probably based on religion, that life is sacred and doesn't belong to you... what a pile of crap. The ability to go out on your own terms is probably a great gift we could bestow on ourselves, and I'm sure in 100 years people will look back on this present-day attitude and shake their heads.

I've lived a long, happy life and with my best days behind me, I want to check out, It's stupid I have to hope to catch an illness so I can depart with dignity, but that's how it is these days.